LeAd A LiFe

<3

2009-04-23T22:17:00.003+08:00

TOP LEFT CHEST DESERVED TO BE STABBED !
i dont know why either,
i guess if it's stabbed, i wont feel the pain,
cause its numb already.
BUT seriously,
i think im superduperduperduper protected.
im going to vietnam, i was totally sad at first,
depressed to be exact.
then today, i found out like where we're going and stuffs,
i was seriously happy,
but noelle's not going,
and i know serena and nicole wont be too happy bout this. D:
sigh, seriously, i think im really blessed.
LOL. what the crap, ><
sigh, everything works out when you trust.
maybe i should just give up this sickenning shit stupid thing,
maybe it deserves to be given up. RIGHT?
SIGH.

:(

2009-04-19T14:54:00.004+08:00

AH! :(
cannot stand it, miss blogging too much :D
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
anyway,
FRIDAY had red cross,
:( kinda disastrous, 3 ppl only.
SIGH. i miss my A clique, :(
Abram, alison, amalina, dingquan, jarrett, jiaqi, siti, guanyu, beatrice.
IMISSYOUALL! COME BACK! :( lol.
hais.
SATURDAY
went to school to study and wait for combined UG camp ppl to finish.
studied geog , LOL.
then went to marilyn's house for pool party.
quite okay lah.
but vvvvvvvvv hot.
LOL. most of us got sunburn. :X
RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRR :X
then went t meet pearly && stupid pigs :D
HAHAHAHA.
played and ate dinner, then went home. :D

TODAY
im sick siol.
i woke up late, when two 2nd service. :X
clarence kept asking me about chio girls in church. -.-
lols, he wants to join my church, i was like NOOOOOOOOOOOO!:X
jokinggg, :D hai.

im in dilemma now. :(

I miss you :/

2009-04-07T17:52:00.002+08:00

did PA today.

nothing much,

life sucks, big time.

so maybe, just maybe,

this life could be stopped by

me and myself alone, i hope so.

imma person who dont know how to express their
feelings the right way, so maybe blogging could be good.
but.. blog is closing down already, SAY HURRAY! -___-
URGH, everything's my fault okay ?
blame me for everything, cause i dont care.
I DON'T CARE YOU SUCKAHHS. __

2009-04-06T20:10:00.003+08:00

SIGH.
so many problems, so little time, so little space for breathing, such a low tolerance level, so little patience, so much presumations . :(
got WRONGED today, cause of chingkahhin. -.-
stupid people, dont know the situation dont say la.
he took my bottle first right , and he assumed that it was abram's.
NOOB. brainless freak. i had to move in front cause
people said i was noisy. so fine .
after i moved, somebody critisised me again,
i move, not happy, dont move, not happy.
go die lah.
anyway, its over, im not gonna think over it anymore,
just a stupid misunderstanding.

STUPID DAY.
urgh whatever.
anyway, went home with zhehui, SUPER FUNNY.
lol. i was laughing 2/3 the journey.
we talked about a lot of wonderful things,
for example .. WOW, the trees are greeeeen,
the sky is so blueee, the taxi has the same colour as what he's wearing. -.-
LOL. anyway, wanted to borrow books, BUT NO CARD, cannot pay off the debts, D:
I NEED A CARDDD! :( some super kind soul lend me please ? :D
PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! :(
tomorrow got IED,
tomorrow need to stay back for assignments,
tomorrow is such a beautiful day,
cause there's chapel.
say yeay.
-.-

toodles, got to study for maths already.
can't afford to flunk this term.
JIAYOUS PEOPLE, JIAYOUS RACHEL, JIAYOUS RED CROSS MATES.
and i dont exactly love you all. :X
LOL. bye world. :\

:/

2009-04-04T20:11:00.003+08:00

LOLOLOLOLOL..! YEAYYYYYYYYYY! :D
God really answers prayers.
Before reaching campsite, i was praying SUPER hard for
us.. i was like, pray that footdrill-ers can command well, OA people wont knock over the instruments, and i wont stumble over MOI.
AND IT WAS ANSWER BY HIM!
im supersupersupersuper shockkkkeedddddd. :O
and superrsupersupersupersupersuper HAPPY! :D
lol. AND..
for those who didn't come ,
im sure you guys have reasons yeah ?
JIAYOUS, go during august!
YOU GUYS AND GIRLS CAN DO IT!
just bathed, SHIOK-ness -.-
ANYWAY,
FOOTDRILLers ended supersuper early, they ended at 1 . -.-
i was like, WAH, SO GOOD! :(
andand, i got internal bleeding! D:
painpainpain, :(
stupid pole, smack my thumb.
RAWR. swelling till now .
ANYWAYYYY, after accreds, went to meet aaron abram and alison , AARON WAS DAMN FUNNY, born joker mans.
then james jarrett and beatrice came,
LOLOLOLOLOL. beatrice and abram left first,
so left us 5 , bought waffle :D
then jarrett left,
left alison aaron james and me taking MRT home.
AARON IS SUUUPPER FUNNY,
HE missed his stop, i was trying to see whether he realised,
then doors are closing, then i told him, he was like O_O.
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL! damn funny.
aiyah, long story lah,
james and aliaon when home at dover :(
left me ALONE.
zzz D:
SIGH.

oh ya, napha,
THANKS TO ;
junyuan, nigel,amalina, diana, aaron, jarrett, chienyee and fatin who pushed me like siao. THANKS A LOT! :)
okayokay,
got to go,
TOODLES! :D

LOLOLOLOL, the HOUSEFLY way :D

2009-03-30T22:24:00.003+08:00

love my new blogskin, credits below . :B
SIGH,
manymany things to post about.
Had REDCROSS on friday, teachers werent there,
had silver accred on evac, i only did the theory, -.-
SIGH. Then taught the sec 1s footdrill,
i can't remember how i was like when i was in Sec 1 leh, :X
LOL. ANYWAY,
red cross ended early cause of meet the parents for seniors, :B
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOL, when opposite to eat and SAW ZHEHUI. -.-
went home with him, i regretted, he scares me :(
ANYWAY,
woke up late for Gold Modular Workshop on Saturday, AWESOME.
i woke up at 8, reached CAMPSITE at 8:55. :D
HAHAHAHAHAHA, i was earlier than them, so i went up first :D
LOLOLOLOL, i was alone D:
jiaqi never come
SIGH, blahblah, long day.
AFTER LESSONS, most of the ppl in FD and OA kena suntann-ed, i was SUPERUBER RELIEVED :D
anyway, wanted to meet jiejie at some club place. -.-
spent almost 2 hours finding that place with chien yee.
OMG, she's super cute lah. LOL.
im like, im very scared.. then she hold on to my hand LOL.
anyway, LOOOOOOOOOOL, found the place, NO AUDI . i was like. -____-
okay, went to play a while then go home.
reached home at 12 am :D
slept at 2, Went to church the next day :D
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL.

HAD FOW! ( festival of worship ).
JUST A SHOUTOUT! :
you guys and girls were AWESOME,
i enjoyed myself verrryyyy much! the best FOW! :D
then wanted to go somewhere, too tired , so just went home. :D
Went out for DINNER! :D
we went to some soup place, it was a restaurant, LOL.
food there was AWESOME but ex :(
LOL. but still nice.
:B

ANYWAY;
TOMORROW GOT CONCEPT PLAN MEETING HOR!
meeting at 3.00 PM. DONT BE LATE.
or ill screw you upside down :D
BYE PEOPLE,.
gotto study, :X
i cant believe im saying that.
WTH.. :X
LOL, BYE :D

2nd DAY OF AGONY,

2009-03-24T22:20:00.002+08:00

Okay, im gonna make this a quick one cause i gtg study for SOP. ( oh wow, im a nerdy smartypants ) HEH .
lol.
school sucks, seriously.
i can't take it.
why are teachers so nice to us ? why are they pushing back deadlines ?
where is the good ol' CMF ?
LOL.
anyway, holiday was awesome, NOT.
propably cause i had no life,
my holidays were filled with RED CROSS and RED CROSS CLIQUE. -.-
lawls.
i wanna class outing, both 2G and 3F. D:
lololololxzxzxzxzxzxzxz, CRAP.
okay, i got to go,
and my eyes are freaking ass closing,
my head is going to bang on the table,
stupid headacheeee.
i can't afford to miss a day of school manxz.
lessons are like superb important now.
i just realised, since chemistry class. LOL.
cause xingchi didnt had a clue what the crap i was explaining to him about.
ALRIGHT, toodles.
got to go <3>

Together Ne-Yo

2009-03-16T09:14:00.002+08:00

Since the day that we met girl
I aint never had anyone make me feel this way
And my heart is sure it wants to be with you
Wanna give you the whole world
If you make the promise to me,
You're gonna stay
Without you guiding me,
I'm lost and so confused

What will it take to show you I'll be by your side
Girl I got you and I want to give you what you never had
Girl everyday I hope to make you part of my life
Cause you know me and I know you girl
your love is where it's at ohhh...

I'm gonna be the love that's gonna last
And be the one that got your back
Ain't nothing never that bad that we would be together
And though we both made our mistakes
And some we never wish we made
But we'll be okay if we just stay together

I know he left you stranded
And you paid the price when you messed up your life oh
girl I know you're so afraid
But I can't right the wrongs he did
I know you saw the lipstick on my window
And wonder'n how many chick's been to my home
I've done my share of playing games
But for you I given up that life

What will it take to show you I'll be by your side
Girl I got you and I want to give you what you never had
Girl everyday I hope to make you part of my life
Cause you know me and I know you girl
your love is where it's at ohhh...

I'm gonna be the love that's gonna last
And be the one that got your back
Ain't nothing never that bad that we would be together
And though we both made our mistakes
And some we never wish we made
But we'll be okay if we just stay together

Baby you're the one I've waited for
Because you gave me what I need and more
Girl its clear that we are meant to be Together,
We should be together ....
Eternally
Girl I'm gonna be

I'm gonna be the love that's gonna last
And be the one that got your back (The one that got your back)
Ain't nothing never that bad that we would be together
And though we both made our mistakes
And some we never wish we made (never wish we made)
But we'll be okay if we just stay together(just stay with me)
(Everything Gonna Be Alright)

I'm gonna be the love that's gonna last
And be the one that got your back
Ain't nothing never that bad that we would be together
And though we both made our mistakes
And some we never wish we made
But we'll be okay if we just stay together

thanks ahnu for song. :D

URGH XD

2009-03-16T08:43:00.002+08:00

WAHHHHH ,
finished LTC camp like yesterday ,
kinda not what i expected it to be.
FIRST DAY ;
had evac and oa lesson,
class was uber noisy, i was freaking pissed.
campfire was screwed.
micpro was screwing me off.
em-cees were unprepared
cheers werent enough
songs couldnt be played.
so fine, but towards the end, it was kinda alright.
had friendship dance, it was traditional ,
so yeah, and we sang
at the beginning altogether .
i think it was suppose to be we're all in this together. :X
LOLLLLLLL!
so.. after that we had group dynamics,
was screwed up, by US.
selfishselfish US.
SIGH.
NEXT DAY;
we had hike up bukit timah hill for rescue mission.
i think this is the part when we all worked together and know what's the
true meaning of group work.
even though we were not really in groups,
i guess we were there to push each other up.
then we had lunch and went back to school.
HAD management crisis after that,
went to look for items in the first aid kit.
-___________-
LOL, chased around school for jarrett and ginyong sir,
CHEATERRRRS, X:
at the very last part
we had to dance to win the items against group 3.
:O i can't believe i did a perfect turn with james mans.
LOL,
he ask me to turn and turn and turn, -.-
which was LAME but funny. :X
THEN had bunk inspection,
screwedscrewedscrewed. D:
sigh.
IM IN ULP D:
aw manssssssssssss,
i dont know what to sayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, D:
i dont want to be in ULP
nevermind, i'll just accept the fact that im in ULP and move on. D:

BEACH ANYONE ? :]
contact me!

.

2009-03-08T11:46:00.003+08:00

4/20 for online a maths test,
can you believe it ?
neither can i.
4/20, that's like 1/5 .
ive wasted one whole term of term one,
she's right,
no point crying over spilled milk,
i have to work harder next term.
this is crap, 4/20
sure kena scolding like shit.
moreover, ive failed amaths drastically.
awmans, its time to buck up,
bye.

right, i think ?

2009-03-03T19:41:00.003+08:00

i think ive made up my mind.
i think im staying in Singapore during the
W.H.E.E.L week,
i think im staying on with tricia and yuqi,
and going to work attachments.
i think, but im not too sure.
i havent got my answer yet.
im not sure of this decision ,
should I ?
is it gonna hurt me if i go overseas ?
i have no idea, i hope it wouldn't spend too much
of my parent's money,
i think it's better if i stay put in Singapore.
It's not that i can't , but it's that i don't want.
SIGH, maybe, work attachments are fun ? :X

SIANNNN,
AMATHS TEST TOMORROW,
omg lahhh, :X
IM GONNA PROVE MISS LEE WRONG AND STUDY
AND GET AT LEAST A PASS FOR THIS TEST AS MY GOAL ;
i think im determined ? :X
at least i hope im determined.
LTC tomorrow,
i hope it's .. okay .
SIGH,
toodles world.

SIGHHHS, friendship problems,
it never seems to have an end.
WHAT THE HECK. D:
bye world.

ARGHHHH x\

2009-03-02T18:56:00.003+08:00

had a massive mood swing day today X(
WALAU EH,
i never even do anything to you,
you wouldnt even tell me what freaking happened. D:
WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED?
supposed to go detention today,
stupid auntie say dont need, i suah,
go eat lunch, go home.
i met amalina :D
LOL.
chat a while , then went home.
IT RAINED! D:
so i stoned for a while,
then i walk under the rain,
I WAS LAUGHING TO MYSELF LEH :D
idk why also, i think its quite funny lor. HEEHEE :)
many things i havent done before,
ive done it again.
this time, without marilyn, its a whole lot boreder. D:
SIGH.
im starting to wonder, what is it really like to have true friends. D:

crap shit.

2009-02-28T21:46:00.003+08:00

sigh,
this is what happen when you side with one friend and
not the other.
whatever, im gonna close this blog soon.
since ive offended so many people with this freaking blog,
might as well just close this damn thing, right ?

AW MAN.

2009-02-27T20:29:00.003+08:00

sucked week,
was caught in the rain almost everyday.
wth , but i love the rain, kinda takes my emotions away,
and loving the raindrops falling on my head. =="
sigh , really sucky week,
had tests like everyday? besides tuesday.):
Social studies test has been postponed, sucked,
i got stunned on the paper,
how sucky was that.D:
fallen out with a kinda close friend, that feeling sucked, as usual.
had red cross today,
kinda slackish,
had evac like almost half the session.
SANG birthday song for james ,
it's the most birthday song sang in my whole oh-so awesome life ):
LOL, just because of james.
tsk, my mom's birthday also, SUPEEEER SUAY D:
james and my mom. LOL XD
SUPER TIRED, PT was kinda fun to me today,
though its kinda the same thing,
but it kinda took off my anger.
LOL. X:
sighhhhh,
okay, im tired.
off for today,
toodles.
goodbye world. :\

F off.

2009-02-22T23:17:00.003+08:00

seriously, whats wrong with people nowadays,
secondary three life sucks.
i don't blame the teachers,
i blame my friends,
sorry, not friends, my peers.
WTH is wrong with you guys ?
i hate myself for being in this CCA,
i hate myself for letting you all trample over me whenever you like.
i hate myself for liking you guys.
i hate myself for listening to you guys.
i hate myself for being in this World.
i hate myself for not borning a year earlier.
i hate myself for borning in the year 1994.
i hate myself for being in fairfield methodist.
i hate myself for hating people.

I give up, yo.
seriously, whatever, you're through messing up my life, bitches.
get a life, go scold some other people for all i care.
but if i have to get it because of you all,
I won't let you guys off, i swear.
i hate you guys, alot.
i wish i was still secondary one, i want to get out of this CCA,
not because of stress, i hate my peers.
idc whether you get offended.
you can get lost if you want.
It's through this incident i know who're the ones that will stand by me.
and it's through this incident, i know who're the ones
that backstabs and breaks friendships the most.
I want to bring us together, you guys arent trying at all
what are all these cliques for? huh,
you think you scold vulgarities big,
then wailum is bigger than you all lah, losers.
scold here scold there few words only.
LAME.
being christian, im not suppose to judge, but you've judge.
YOUR POINT ?

Just leave me alone, get lost,
shut up.

im gonna miss you marilyn ho.
thanks for being there when i needed you,
also thanks nithya, joey ,abram and clarence,
even though clarence , i know you've got your own problems.
i understand, CHEERUP.
toodles world, i dont feel like writing my emotions alr.
they'll make readers feel sad only.
dont feel sad, cause im angry. :D
BYE WORLD.

LA-DEE-DAH

2009-02-19T22:04:00.002+08:00

damned you,
seriously,
what the hell is freaking wrong with you ?
why would you want everything she has ?
are you like jealous or something ?
cause i think you are (:
idk why,
i feel far apart from you now.
EVEN further apart than th gas particles =="
idk alright,
you get super sensitive when people do things to you,
what about you ?
you dont even care about what you've done to people,
all you know what to do is cry.
CRY ? you want people's sympathy, FOR WHAT ?
then push all the blame towards the person who
has done nothing wrong.
i hate you,
i hate you for stepping into my life.
could you just get lost ?
why are you even here ?
GET A LIFE.
stop ruining others.

AND OH, LTC's tmr,
im freaking out.
OH NO! );
the saddest thing is that..
that dog is coming.
which makes it awful. LIKE OMG ? X:
sigh,
just hope she stops flirting like a flirting machine.
like PPOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH, then flirt juice comes out that kinda thing ;X
SIGH.
i very much want to respect her,
but what we give is not what we get,
so what we get is what she gave. :D
TOODLES WORLD, and this loser. :)
BYE! :)

FD COMP'09

2009-02-14T22:36:00.002+08:00

Honestly, honestly, honestly.
I'm not regretting what i did today.
even though im not perfect,
well, nobody is right ?
AT LEAST.
i think i maintain seven protocols.
AND,
i endured through,
- MUSCLE STRAIN
- BAH-LU-KUUS, i fell when we were walking up the stairs.
- SWEAT-IN-THE-EYE
- HOT SUN

ive left this competition grounds with no regrets at all.
though we dint make it to top 12,
IN MY HEART , we have all done our best,
ESPECIALLY dian maam for her commandings and junyi maam for her loud and clear timings.
THANK YOU :-
- DIAN MAAM
- JUNYI MAAM
- SAVONA MAAM
- YUMNI MAAM
- SHARINA MAAM
- CASSANDRA MAAM
- SIYING MAAM
- ROYSTON SIR
- AARON SIR
who have brought us through with smiles and pain,
practically the whole sec 4s lah hah.
AND
- GINYONG SIR TOO! (:
- LEONARD SIR
- CHANEL MAAM
- WENFANG MAAM
Thanks for being with us through the journey of the competition,
thanks for understanding the situation we're in.
you guys are the best seniors ive ever known,
though there were scoldings,
you guys never scolded us for no reason.
THANK YOU SIRS AND MAAMS
and thank you
-RUTH MAAM,
though you had scolded us a lot, :X
i still thank you for making your way down from ngee ann.
thank you for spurring us through training and the
competition itself.
im sorry we let you, sec fours, YOs, and ourselves down.
but i know, we've really done our best.
REALLY. i could die just for that trust.

LASTLY,
thank you reserves and fd commers.
i believe what you've done today was your best already.
we have no one to blame at all.
it wasnt anyone's fault.
if there's anyone to blame,
blame our FD comp 09 squad.
ONE FOR ALL , ALL FOR ONE!

my headhurts

2009-02-09T21:04:00.003+08:00

DAMNYOUSTUPIDMIGRANE! D:
LMAO, idk where i found this energy to post. ANDWTH,
my keyboard's " space " isnt working well, ftw.
school was boring , == .
i almost fell asleep during MT &Emath. :X
OH WTH >:D
Cause Emath was oh-so fun,
because of ME! :D ><
no lah, cause of alex, abram, tricia and james. LOL
Abram threw Tricia's Carebear directly above my eye. TWICE .
hahaha, i dont blame him lah, cause we had fun. :D
(RIGHT ? )
and i dint fell asleep cause they were both so EXCITING subjects. :D
LOOL, English was just as fun lah.
Clarence had 16 dollars worth of coins,
He's damn stupid lah.
drop coin then blame me.
10 cents also wanna scoldscoldscold. D:
LOL. =X
After school, Had Fd training.
HAD SERIOUS MIGRANE! D:
wanted to fall out during hentak-ing ,
but i wanted to act " HERO "
HAHAH, ><
i stayed on , until fancy,
Third round, i gave up.
my head was in pain . D:
like got bahlakuuuu. D:
then watched the fancy drill.. i almost cried..
LOL, ><
not telling why. :)
Had talks by sharina maam and royston sir. :X
not really a talk lah, but more of the upcoming situations lah.
:( i am so freaking out already.
SIGH,
have to rush homewooork, and hit those sheets.
TOODLES WORLD! :D LOVE²
P.S i need anger management course. X:

OH LOL.

2009-02-08T22:04:00.002+08:00

Rules:It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people.Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question
.1. What is your name : RACHEL
2. A four Letter Word : RAPE ( hahaha, that just came to my mind, cause i was talking to chien :X )
3. A boy's Name : Richard
4. A girl's Name : Ruth
5. An occupation : Rapist ? :X
ERMMM, Receptionist ?
6. A color : RED
7. Something you'll wear : R? DD:
8. A Sport: Running is a sport ? :D
9. A food : Roti Prata!
10. Something found in the bathroom: Rubbish bin ?
11. A place : Romania. :D
12. A reason for being late : Rushing through a traffic jam ?
14. A movie title : Rachel Getting Married ? :X
OH DAMNED, my name =="
Rattatooee . Whatever it's spelled. :D
15. Something you drink : Rootbeer
16. A musical group : IDK D:
17. An animal : Rat
18. A street name : is there such thing as Raffles Street ? :X
IDK D:
R ? D:
19. A type of car : Renault
20. The title of a song? : Realize by Colbie Calilat.

OH WHATEVER DESIREEEEE! D:
i have no more brain cells to crack this quiz manns D:
LOL.
gonna hit those sheets and get ready for school tmr! :D
TOODLES PEOPLE! :D
-TIRED-

OH YAH, im so tagging people to do this quiz.
- JOEY
- JESSICA
- JIAQI
- RACHEL NG
- AMALINA
- OLEANDER
dont know who else to tag. ><
BYE! :D

D:

2009-02-04T22:18:00.002+08:00

Omg ?
ten days left.
five trainings left.
15 hours left.
our drills are still as sucky,
i see no hard work , im sorry,
why cant nobody be serious at this point of time ,
where its only ten days ?
last year at this period,
we would have been aceing in everything we do.
WHY D:
why is everybody slacking ?..
why does everybody lack that sense of urgency ?
why do people dillydally ..
why do people dont even CARE WHEN THE COMPEITITION IS JUST TEN DAYS AWAY!
its seriously kinda shameful,
if we lose at our home grounds,
not lose, not in top 12th.
this is OUR homeground.
im dissapointed like shits lah.
what happened to better than the best ? ..
GONE ? POOF IN THE AIR ?
PLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASE ,
make the effort to do drills properly,
cause good influences will affect other people too,
im serious.
HELP ME , if not for the school,
HELP ME .
please let me know that i have not come to trainings for nothing.
PLEASE, im begging you all. PLEASE.

OH, anyway.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULIA :D

betrayal.

2009-02-03T20:31:00.002+08:00

HEH.
lets talk about monday :D
had mass run. );
had to run in order to reach in class by 8am,
so .. er.. walk and run walk and run loh.
then had PE ):
my leg was super giving way already.
after school, had FD comp PRACTISE ! ):
and the amount of hentaks i had to do both for static and fancy,
my legs are dying.
RAWRRRRRRRRRRR :\
and when i came home,
i couldnt move my legs anymore.
MUSCLE STRAIN! D:
aiyoooooooo, dad says it takes about a week to heal.
OH WTF ? :X
hehheh,
lucky no need to run cross country.
or else, sayo people.
i need to be subbed.
and i dont like to be subbed :D
HAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA :X
OH,
marilyn went back to SH today,
packing her stuffs and coming back to SG ! :)
AND OH, i finished amath homework in school.
it was remarkably and surprisingly easy. :D
no wonder miss lee dont want excuses. :)
HAAHAAHAAHAA.
im super random, and thanks to tricia.
i think i like the way my life is now.
i don't wanna change.
THANKS :D
today was super funnnnn after school !
met jiejie ;x together with chien and serena.
WAH, laughed a lot lah.
cause of some stupid lame reasons, and jokes.
mostly cause of serena and jiahua.
LIKE ZOMGZ ?
idkidkidk, D:
still got Social studies homework, not done. D:
im confused with the policies.
nevermind , ask clarence to help me tml . :D
he's a PRO manns :D
im being random again. ><
GTG study for emath and physics test
TOODLES WORLD!<>
bye.

and when you're fifteen

2009-02-01T22:18:00.004+08:00

ZOMGZ! :D
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO
TAU-TAU-TAU-TAU-FIQ ! :D
and.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO
FA-FA-FA-FA-FA-FA-TIN ! :D
and 2G still rocks my socks. :]

SHITS YOU ASS.

2009-01-30T21:47:00.003+08:00

from now onwards,
im never gonna trust anyone else ,
besides my bff and people whom are super close to me.
super, OH I SAY SUPER .
cause i realise,
ive officially stepped into a super huge trapp,
laid infront of me,
and ive foolishly believed
oh wth.
i thank God
for having clarence as my friend.
thank you.
and that i hope that
he'll continue to be my friend.
:D HEH ><

RAWR, MATHS SUCKS IN SECONDARY THREE! D:
i totally dont understand what the teacher's talking about for emaths lah.
amaths i understand, though it's fast.
i could catch up, but when i do,
i tend to make mistakes that i shouldnt .
cross method sucks for me. D:
graphs are not bad when
you get the hung of it.
OH SOMEBODY HELP ME, D:
physics, not too bad.
chemistry too.
chinese, normal.
english, normal.
social studies, not too bad too.
ONLY MATHS!
somebody please help me.
): and ill love you for a lifetime . :D
Life in secondary three isnt the same anymore,
sec 2 life was such a breeze, that i dint know
time passes by so fast .
i miss 2G super much,
i miss those jokers who cracks up the class
when lessons are boring.
3F is like a new life for me.
and the road ahead is tough.
everybody misses 2008,
why am i even in 3F ?
i shouldnt be here, at all.
if only mrs ho hadnt pushed me all the way,
i would have been in 3G, or 3H.
i owe it to her.
she makes me love science uber much,
now everything's different.
i really dont wanna drop amath,
instead i wanna work hard towards th exams,
but, i myself cant dignose the problems.
HELP! D:
somebody.

AMAZING RACE - YOUTH EDITION ! :D

2009-01-25T14:53:00.003+08:00

seriously,
i never had so much fun since the year started.
Thanks ;
Abram, Amalina, Joey,Junyuan, Loysius, Marilyn, Nigel, Oleander, Serena, Zhehui,
I think thats it. ><
LOL.
seriously, without you guys,
my week couldnt have been better.
THANK YOU.
Went out after the ethnic celebration, :O
ended like at 11 lah,
cause of some stupid blackout. ><
then chased us out of school somemore. D:
Went Plaza Singapura to eat and wanted to watch movie,
but we kept changing plans.
Making some people pissed. LOL.
Wanted to go lan, lan no space. FTW.
then walked to some game thing,
i remember leonard sir said before ,
when we had the gathering at bugis junction. HAHAHA.
whatever,
took a long time to find the place,
people complained :X
hahahaha, i guess we kinda got lost,
WELLLLL..
then played games,
wanted to find busstop to marilyn's house,
walked like a huge round lahhh, ><
SUPER TIRED, but had LOADS of fun.
CAMWHORED.
hahaha, SANG SONG.
SUPER FUNNY.
hahahaha, then took bus back,
went to marilyn's pool for a while, waiting for my mom,
shared secrets, and went home.
><
hahahaha, AWESOME experience with 2F and 3F . <3
thanks a lot.

OH BOY.

2009-01-22T21:28:00.002+08:00

MARILYN'S BACK! :D
yeahhhh, and shes better than ever, oh wth. [:
OH GOSH,
help me D:
what the hell is wrong with me lah,
bye to the good ol' days i guess,
hello secondary three, officially .
stupid memories.
sigh, tired.
apparently i think the word "tired" has appeared in my blog like every recent post lah
LOL.
went home with abram, chien yee, junyuan,nigel and zhehui.
LOL. waited for bus 74, super long.
then me,nigel,junyuan and zhehui went to the busstop outside PEIHWA!:D
I miss peihwa super much lah,
now, idk whether my teacher kena promoted or retired.
nigel left first, then me , jy and zhehui took 67 home.
super squeezy.
LOL, then jy dropped at his stop.
talked to zhehui during the bus journeyy. LOL.
then accompanied him to the back gate home.
super tired, i forgotten to press the lift, then i was
waiting like an idiot.
LOL.
whatever,

Homeworks,
Combined Humans - two essays
Amaths - Practise on amath 1.
ermerm,
nomorei guess.
English - Vocab 2 corrections, Vocab 3, English Project.
HALLELUJAH . :D
finally not so much hmwk. YEAYYY! :]
LOL, need to rush on the two essays, need to hand in tml.
GOD BLESS ME.

WHOOOOOOHOOOOOOOO :]

2009-01-21T21:35:00.003+08:00

superduper tired today already okay,
i dont have the energy to bother about this stuffs already,
im exhausted.
had FD training today,
worst of the worst. :\
five periods of physics,
OH LORD, BLESS ME.
im so tired that i could even shut my eyes and hit the sheets now.
im dying of half insomnia,
sleep, wake up, sleep , wake up,
thanks lah.
im super sad,
AMATH, i think im the lowest in class already,
the rest of the test ?
oh, i think i shouldn't even have worked my best,
through train isnt as easy nor tough as i thought it would be.
okay fine, i admit, i dont know what imtalking about now.
HALLELUJAH.
OH DRATS
super pissed and helpless.
God, help me ,
this is my silent prayer to you,
help me by providing me endurance,
and perseverance to never give up on things i shouldn't,
and endure on things that i should never flared my anger upon,
in Jesus name i pray, AMEN

THE END.

DRATS

2009-01-18T08:53:00.002+08:00

stupid alarm, woke me up at 6.30 on a sunday morning.
had FD camp yesterday,
though it wasnt as fun as last year's
i hope everyone had a wake up call. ><
competition is like so near,
oh c'mon, D:
show your best yah ? :D
sigh,
here i am, blogging in a sunday morning,
nothing to do. now's like a 8:55, D:
homework is what fills my head the most,
after homework is FD .
it never ends,
well , i hope now my main focus is studies, D:
i hope also, that i won't be off the track
and think of things that im not suppose to think of,
and i hope what my friend said was true.
and i hope it stays true til' now.
gonna have circuit run tomorrow,
my leg hurts a lot.
should be muscle strain ):
well , like what miss tai said, no pain no gain :D
hahahahhaha,
super tired.
and..
MARILYN'S COMING BACK FOUR DAYS LATARRRRR! :D
yeahh, :X
hahahahahahahhahahaha,
what could i say ? :X
going off to church soon , D:
God bless me , :D
TOODLES! <3

speechless >;\

2009-01-15T21:37:00.003+08:00

DUPERSUPERPUPERLUPER TIRED,
Today was okaay,
bored though, five periods of physics, D:
killing me like alotalot,
then had recess, then emath, then free period.
emath was so-so , though i was like,
having fainting spells already,
after free period was english,
like zoomggzzz, clarence ching was blabbering
all his pettiness to me about abram. ><
middle person is hard, i know how you felt marilyn. D:
tsktsk, dont wanna say already,
then it was chemistryyyy, super sadddd,
my experiment failed,
i chao-tahhh the solution,
D: zhehui was laughing at me
then miss thio asked to pour water,
KAHBOOOOOOOOM,
it changed back to blue , yeayyyyy!:D
then had class contact,
talked about class commitee before some
people go for some survey thing,

CLASS CHAIRMAN - ABRAM
DEPUTY CLASS CHAIRMAN - SAMANTHA
CLASS CAPTAINS
- CHARMINN
-JONATHAN CHAN
IT REP
- i forgot.. MORRIS ? :O
NE AMBASSADOR - CLARENCE CHING! :D
i was expecting this outcome like longlong ago,
just the jonathan chan part shocked me a little. ><
ahahahaha, then talked about the ethnic celebration thing,
then class dismissed.
supersuperduper tired.
wanted to follow amalina to make police report, then she say she dont want,
then jiaqi told me something shocking to me, but kinda woke me up.
then jiaqi went home to iron her uniform, :O
waited for chien, then she say she couldnt go IMM,
so i went to clementi to meet amalina, bridget and regina :D
waited for IMM shuttle bus like DAMMMMMN LONG.
it's one hour per bus y'know.
super long,
then forget it, took bus there,
cause we met claudia and alyssa along the way,
aate and shopped,
and amalina went home, super tired.
camwhore a bit with bridget and regina , :)
and did chinese homework.
im like a chinese freakkkk,
i so want to change class y'know, D:
no that i dont like 3F,
i just feel im not suitable to be in a smart class,
im not smart y'know.
sigh,
FD COMP CAMP TOMORROW,
killing me like ftw? ;X
there's red cross training also, CCA tryouts for sec ones,
AAAAAWESOMEEEEEEEEE! :D

i pray that they would find red cross a fun cca .
i pray the seniors will go easy with us and weather would not be so hot,
i pray that camp would be a fun and enriching experience for us,
i pray that camp would not be a time to emo for me,
i pray that camp would be enjoyable for FD comp squad 09 and seniors,
i pray that i would have sufficient food and rest,
i pray that it was as fun as last year,
AMEN.

DUPER TIRED

2009-01-13T22:22:00.003+08:00

WHAT CAN I SAY, D:
nothing.
IM super BORED and super TIRED,
webcam-ed marilyn just now,
she complained it was too dark,
i complained it was too laggy , Hahahahaha. D:
i dont know where i find this energy to blog,
so toodles.
gonna have FD training tmr,
OH WOAH, please remember to bring boots,
or some people like me would be super duper angry y'know.
please and thank you.
GOODNIGHT WORLD .<3

2009-01-11T15:33:00.003+08:00

well, i guess what i could say now is im moodless , seriously.
homework is like the worst thing you could ever have on earth.
homework , they are boring,
i could just fall dead in front of it.
i cant believe in another five months or so, we're taking over.
five months isnt long, neither is it short,
LTC is in a month or two more,
am i suppose to care ?
first week of school was awesomeboring.
friday had CCA performance and orienteering,
performance was awesomisticfun, sec ones were cheering,
i hope they are TRULY cheering,
i was in stretcher squad, superuberfun.
during our practice,
i saw zhehui,
he say dunnowhat, skarly i drop the stretcher, CHOY
ftw,
then amalina stained her shirt,
hahahahahhaa. she's so cute, she got so upset lah . LOL
thenthen,
i went to locker to bring her my extra shirt,
RACHEL TO THE RESCUE! heehee:P
i practically dumped everything in my locker, i was uber tired.
i got so lazy to bring back the books
after CCA booth,
we got the news that we've got training the next day,
uber pissed, :X
vented my anger on like everything.
thanks to aaron sir who gave us a motivational heart to heart talk,
kinda settled down already.
and we know who's actually who.
FD comp training tomorrow,
kinda looking forward and also not looking forward to it.
ive got to run for stupid fitness thingy,
stupid weighing machine, im like not seventy plus can.
anyhow weigh.
i go see doctor also lesser.
RAWR, but nevermind, it's good to run! :D
tomorrow got PE too, ):
got to do the beep thingy,
RAWR, im gonna run like shits tmr lah.
should be uber tired.
HELPPP ! D:
school ends at 1.10, oh wow.
but we've got training, oh wow.
thanks for ending an hour early,
and,
ILOVEPLATOONTHREE,
no more A clique,
but PLATOONTHREE'OHHNINE.

to fd comp people;
im not sure whether ive got the rights to say this,
but if you want to exit,
go ahead.
seriously,
training sucks to the core,
people not putting in the effort to ask questions,
and always think they are right.
i know, im only a coporal,
im only a secondary three normal red cross cadet,
but some things, if you dont voice out,
you're gonna keep it in forever,
and seriously,
i mean, im not good at drills either,
why do people think they're always right?
belok wrongly, ask how to do and make the effort to do it right lah,
no seven protocols, let every bang be a reminder for you to look up and protray your
seven protocols lah.
no sharp turns, make the effort to lock your legs and jerk lah.
no perfect bangings, lift your legs ninety degrees and bang on the middle part of your soles.
im dissapointed, both in myself and the squad. the end.

tag replies :D
LEONARD SIR;
hehheh, i hope so.
BRIDGET;
ccrazyyy, im not like you, super act cute. xD
MARILYN;
YEAHYEAH! :D
missesss! ):

SCHOOOOOOOOLLLLLLL D:

2009-01-06T16:04:00.002+08:00

oh wow,
managed to survive like 3 days of sec3 life. TT
ftw,
manymanymany homeworks, ><"
thanks alot for pushing us so hard since the first real day of school.
RAWR,
i mean like, i know we cant play,
dont have to preach to us like half the period, like zomgz ? :O
siansiansian, D:
i've got unfinished,
- zuo ye
-xi zi
-amaths homework ( heymath )
-emaths homework ( practise on maths one. TT)
-journal
i think thats all,
LOL.
this whole week is like a red cross filled week, TT
tomorrow - FD comp training
thursday - Evacutation thingy =="
friday- FD comp training and CCA booth thingy TT
saturday- FLAG DAY, woohooo, it's like my third? =="
and i dont have a badge. ==.
ALALALALALLALA,

TOODLES, got to go do my homework, -.-

OMG

2009-01-01T22:42:00.002+08:00

like it's a new year.
it's a freaking new year,
and you know what that means ?
new class, new teachers, new classmates, new allocations, new friends, new timetable.
like a O-M-G ?
and i'm sec three, wow
it doesn't feel like a new year.
it's felt like the world has stopped.
and time isn't moving at all .
well time is, physically,
mentally, time is still .
like OMG
well ,
here's a post before i hit the sheets.
sigh,
pissedpissedpissed,
i don't know my teachers,
NONE of them taught me before.
like wtf ?.. :X
howhowhowhow ?
how am i suppose to communicate with them,
=="
and i so totally hate bias teachers lah,
RAH :/
i hate my new hair too. ):
it sucks, totally.
once i ponytail-ed them, they look fugly and short.
if i let them down, kena attire check i si liao.
OHMYF.
RAWRS.
i so hate 2009,
a year of misconceptions and misunderstandings , thats what i see.
i flared up the beginning of the year,
like omf ?
RAWR, im so gonna hit the sheets,
btw, tawn-ed at joey's house ytd, LOL.
not long til the pictures arrived . :D
BYE world. BYE 2008, DONT COME 2009. ):

MERRY CHRISTMAS

2008-12-25T12:14:00.002+08:00

HOHOHO!
mass message last night to wish people merry christmas ! :)
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!
hopehopehope that you will enjoyenjoyenjoy your break for adults who had been working
so hard !
for university students who studied hardhardhard,
for JC & POLY students who have been chionging hardhardhard,
for SECONDARY && PRIMARY who have been slacking hardhardhard,
for PRE-SCHOOLERS who had been playing hardhardhard. :DD

SO LOVING CHRISTMAS!
although it doesn't felt like those past christmases we have had. D:
BUT IT'S CHRISTMAS ! let the glad tidings flow. :D
hahahahhahahaha,
okay, talk about ytd in church,
supposed to reach church by 3,
so left the house about 2:20,
my sis was like, HURRYHURRRY><"
i forgotten all about my goodie bags.
so went up and get them,
=="
HAHAHAHHAHA, so reached church, ><
saw-ed JC , bel and evelynn :]
then went up and down the both santuaries.
so FINALLY decided to stay in the B sanctuary. ><"
got reason laa, but cannot say. :X
then went for dinner ,
at first we went to west coast plaza, but
the things were so EXPENSIVE! like zomgz,
and i saw santa claus with a whole bag of goodies, but of course,
im matured and stuffs, not like somebody, :X ahemahems.

so we went to the ban mian stall, :X
SO LATE,
hahahahhahaha, so.. received cards from ,
annabel, ada, jc , joelle and venezia ,
and received goodies and presents from,
janelle, bel, ada, jc , elyssa, qingyi, jason ,auntie elizabeth and auntie laysee :D
gave presents to,
bel, ada, ming e, janelle, tim , jc ,sam wong, dominic, joelle, jodi , venezia :)
HOHOHO! i'll be giving my batch ppl on friday . :O
and giving my RC A Clique on monday, the FD Training day camp ., =="
andand, cards to my batch ppl on friday too! :)
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!

p.s abram,
my wish was for you and chien to come lahh,
but well, it was not fufilled ? :X

YOUTH CAMP!

2008-12-16T17:59:00.003+08:00

GOING FOR CHURCH CAMP ! :D
ANYTHING BEEP MY PHONE,
WONT BE ONLINE TILL SATURDAY OR SUNDAY,
TOODLES <3
will go for FD comp training btw, :D
loves ! <3

sigh,

2008-12-15T15:45:00.003+08:00

UPDATESUPDATESUPDATES! :)

i fly, i fall.
you never fail
to catch me upon
your arms, oh lord,
thank you for the things you've done for me,
even though i can't see you,
i feel your presence,
you never fail to touch my heart,
and when im in pain and no one to talk to,
you're always there for me,
even though we failed you,
you never failed to fail us,
ILOVEYOULORD,
give thanks for he is good, :D
im like dying yesterday night lah, :(
just finished UIP yesterday,
and WE ALL PASSED! :)
hahahahahaha,
aaron went on saying he's the only guy and blah, :X
hahahhaha, then
beatrice, siti, wanping and me was teasing him ,
about him not being a guy but a shemale. LOL!
very funny! hahahaha,
i reached home about 8 plus, :X
left kembangan about 7, :(
tiredtiredtired.
then dialed abram to tell him about camp la,
since he msged me before camp ended, :O
very tired otw home, but full of energy at home. =="
then called chien, ask her why she jealous. -.-
STUPID REASON LAHH! :X
thenn, she had another call, so she called me back,
hahahhaa, then i started to talk in indian,
she talked to me in chinese.
HAHAHAHAHHAHA! chao funny :D
im not being racist though D:
anyways,
UIP is OVER! :O
Thank you for all those evac sirs and maams,
BIGBIG THANKYOU! :D
><"
and also the other specs and people behind the scenes :D
SIGH,
BTW, if you have time,
view this video, :D
it's for you if you treat me as your friend. :D

><"

2008-11-20T19:01:00.004+08:00

HAHAHAHA,

so happy tah know that there's still people out there caring for me :X

sighh, anyway. Time for Updates! :)
Stupid week, =X
Monday,
had bravo meeting, but i cant go. :X
Tuesday,
nothing on lah,
but i think i saw amalina, junyuan and zhehui at lot 1, :D
Wednesday,
went to sentosa for primary school gathering :)
Thursday
had bravo meeting and this time i went :D
DAMN FUNNY! :)
Jarrett la ,
made me laugh like some mad woman, :O
then chien came also,
LOL.
went to arcade, and ate at kopitiam.
then arcade again, ddr cheated our feelings. -.-
THENTHEN,
wanted to have ice cream, but i had slurpee and jarrett's got ice cream instead. ><
then sat down , had some charity thing, :D
me and chien looked at jarrett. :D
HAHAHAHAHAH!
then he gave two bucks .
kekeke,
thennnnnnnn,
went home la,
Today's like a saturday,
had rcyc, bt can't go,

talked to abram last night,
:O so understanding la,
no wonder most girls prefer a guy best friend.
NO OFFENCE! :D
i still love my bff :D
LIM CHIEN YEE JESSICA!
98% on love cal okay!
dont playplay. :D
i love my boyfriend also,
:D
wanna know ? :D
ask ME! :D
GUA GUA GUA! :)

had quiz from joey..... -.-
#1The rules & regulations:
1) Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself
2) People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own, 10 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly
3) At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged & list their names
4) No tag back.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
1} I love to lie down and read comics ><"
2} I normally get all upset just because of a drama show that shows a sad part.
3} I love to swim! :P
4} I got very bad mood swings
5} I hate people who boast about themselves = =
6} I sleepwalk and sleepwalk . :D
7} I hate people who snatches things that aren't meant for them.
8} I hate people who accuse me :X
9} I hate naggy peeps, OMG.
10} I give up very easily :X (kekeke, same as joey)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Pass this quiz to 10 people if you wish to know how they feel about!
1} desiree<3
2} jiaqi<3
3} marilyn<3
4} sheralin<3
5} chanel<3
6} zhiqing<3
7} kangling<3
8} alison<3
9} rachel ng<3
10} tricia<3
SIAH LAH , ALL GIRLS EH! :(
14. Who's no.6 having a relationship with?
i don't know ? :O

15. If no.7 and no.10 are together, will it be a good thing?
OMG, they dont even know each other. :X
and they're both girls.

16. What is no.2 studying about?
idk,
guitars ? :O studying about.. ME! :D jkjk

17. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
}yesterday :)

18. What kind of music does no.8 like?
}idk, but i know she doesn't like thunder :O
btw. thunder is a song. LOLS

19. Does no.1 have any siblings?
}yupp, 1 girl . primary 4, i think :D

20. Will you woo number no. 3?
}YEAHS! :D
i said like, if she was a guy, i would definately say i love her, :D

21. How about no.8?
LOL, i dont think she'll like me anyways :D
her expectations are HIGH! :)

22. Is no.4 single?
}nope , attached ! :)

23. What is the surname of no.5?
CHAN! :D

24. What is the hobby of no.10?
}she loves to be random,
and loves to talk rubbish ! :D

25. Does no.7 and no.9 get along?
}idk, they are strangers to each other ! :O

26. Where is no.2 studying at?
} FAIRFIELD! :D

27. Where does no.9 live?
}jurong west.

28. What colour does no.4 like?
}idk ><
sorry! :X

29. What is no.1 doing now?
enjoying her time after her 'O's ?
i think she's overseas, she told me before. =X

Scars in my heart ;

2008-11-18T23:15:00.004+08:00

sometimes i really feel so extra,
very hard to describe la.
like, odd-one-out, that kinda feeling.
i tried not to think so hard ,
but it comes to me whenever im alone,
i tried asking myself,
worth it or not ?
i can't even give the answer myself.
i couldn't expect just a little more from my friends and family,
it'll seem too much,
i don't know what to do,
or who to turn to,
sometimes ill just quietly cry in one corner,
no one knows.
except one friend
i sometimes don't know how to say the words i wanted to ,
and that friend knows that im down,
i don't know how, :X
sometimes,
there are some things out of my control,
it's really up to her,
thats why,
i really don't know who to turn to,
everything seemed so helpless,
i need friends too,
not only you.
i hope you'll read this .
i really do.
i have feelings also,
not only you,
when you're happy,
you think others are too ?

BORING DAYY! :O

2008-11-17T17:19:00.003+08:00

Sian,
absolutely nothing to do todayy manns,
and AUDITION IS FINALLY BACK TO ME, :D
hahahahah, :)
did a little housework today,
and OMG,
i woke up like 10 plus ?
my latest leh, since the holidays started, :D
i was pretty tired also. TT
thennn,
ate breakfast and folded clothings.
helped to give the garang guni stuffs also. :D
HOW COOL! :D
and he gave us 10 bucks .
hard life hard life.
sighh, he's been coming since i was six years old,
tough manns.
played audi before and after lunch
played with joey before lunch,
then my sister asked me to eat lunch downstairs.
:D
then went back to play audi, YAYY! :D
im so looking forward to DCG gathering. ;)
AWESOME! :D
anddddd.....
UIP . T-T
nevermind,
i shall persevere.
:D
<33>

FA COMP! :)

2008-11-16T22:59:00.004+08:00

Sorry, got into top 8, but didn't get the challenge shield, and the champion . ):
but thanks to all the VI who had helped us this few weeks,
:D
Thanks :

Fion Maam ;
you've really helped us alot, by coming down to school and everywhere just to
meet us and clarify our doubts. :D
thanks .

Huiling Maam ;
Thanks for all the help during the trainings and the camp,
and the time you've sacrificed for us :D

Ruth Maam ;
even though you dint come on the actual day,
thanks for not giving up on us,
and pushing us to achieve higher standards :D

Aaron ;
thanks also,
for not giving up on me,
clarifying evacuation skills with me,
you're great teammate and a strong one :O

Dian ;
you funny senior, :D
never failed to make me laugh whenever i see you , :D
thanks for the hyper and funny sessions,
and for the biscuits! :)

Junyi ;
thanks also, team leader ! :D
for clarifying my doubts also,
you're like a genius! :O
and also brings laughter to FA comp trainings and camp ! :D

Yumni, Savona,Siying;
thanks for preparing the camp ! :D
even though we were not very happy,
but we had fun, right ? :D

Alison , Jessica ;
HAHAHAHAHA,
casualties.
thanks for letting us carry you two ,
and sorry if im unstable when im evacuating you two :O
and thanks for the funny sessions also,
especially the feather,
made me laugh a lot ! :D

<3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333!

OH,
thanks to ;
Amalina, Abram , Jiaqi , Miss wong, Miss tai, Jeffery, etcetc
for wishing us the best of luck for FA comp :D
ily ALLLLLLL! :)

STRESS

2008-11-14T21:17:00.002+08:00

:OOOO,
pre-competition jitters manns.
I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. ><
IM freaking out like shit now
i feel so isolateddddd ,
im mugging for first aid now,
it seems as if im mugging for PSLE .
if only it was that simple . T-T
HELPPPPPPPP,
Im really scared we couldnt get the champs or something, ARGH x
apparently every competition i've joined, there's nothing .
>;\
im seriously scareddddd,
i dont want to let my teammates down either,
im scared and freaked .
Tomorrow's the competition,
and yet my mother expects me to do this and that,
AIYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ! >:\
toodles, gotta go mug . T^T,
wish me luck dudes and dudettes . <3

MARILYN'S QUIZZZZ TT

2008-11-14T08:20:00.003+08:00

1. The person who tagged/passed you this quiz is?
MARILYN
2. The relationship between him/her is?
i dont know her at all lahh .
jkjk :D
she's my ..
SISTER, aka ,
BANG BANG aka,
CRAZY MAD APPLE PIE FRIEND .
is that good ?
3. Your five expressions of him/her is?
cute, baby skin, baby hair, caring ,childish :D (HaHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA)
4. The most memorable thing she/he has done for you?
SHE ....
waited for me at macs one fine morning and
turned out that i overslept. ><
5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you?

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
IM NOT A LESBO!
if she becomes my lover,
i think i'll hug her everyday to sleep.
BUT PLEASE,
dont think sick . :)
7. If he/she becomes your lover, things to improve on will be?
Her amount of noise pollution. :D
8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
SHE WILL NEVER BECOME MY ENEMY, NEVER EVER EVERR! :D
9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
idk,
there's no reason to fight with her ,
knowing that she's gonna lose .XD
jkjk.
10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her is?
GO TO SHANGHAI and find her.
11. Your overall expression of him/her is?
NOISY! :O
heehee, CUTE LAH CUTE LA! xD
12. How do you think the people around you feel for you?
im mad, crazy ,in my own world. xP
13. The characters that I love about myself are?
idk,
im smileable when im damn uber hyper?
15. The most ideal person you want to be?
like a stewardess.
16. For people that love, care and show concern for you, say something to them?
I LOVE YOU TOO! <3
17. Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you
1.Jessica
2.Abram
3.Jiaqi
4.Rachel Ng
5.Serena
6.Alison
7.Fatin
8.junyi
9.rebecca
10.kristin
19. Is no.9 a female or male?
female.
the name clearly states, REBECCA,
does it sound like a guy name to you ?
20. If no. 7 and no. 10 are together, would it be a good thing?
they'll be lesbians and
it's not good.
21. What is no. 2 studying about?
idk,
what's he studying about ?
school stuffs ?
ENGLISH, EMATH,AMATH,CHINESE,PHYSICS,CHEM,SOCIAL STUDIES, GEOGRAPHY.
22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
few days ago ?
23. What kind of band music does no.8 like?
i don't know. TT
24. Does no.1 have any siblings?
she does (: 1sister!
25. If no. 3 wants to woo you, would you acceptor reject?
OF COURSE ILL ACCEPT!
she'll MY chipmunk :D
26. How about no.7?
WHY YES OF COURSE! :D
my beloved classmate :D
27. Is no.4 single?
i dunno .
28. What is the surname of no.5?
serena HOT yan jun , LOL
TOH :)
29. What is the hobby of no. 10?
idk,
she likes to blog ?
shop ? ;D
30. Does no. 5 and no.9 get along?
idk,
apparently my sister hasn't met
serena personally,
except at the restaurant.
31. Where does no. 2 study at?
FAIRFIELD !
32. Talk about something for no. 3?
CHIPMUNK! :D
33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
I AM NOT A LESBIAN!
34. Where does no.9 live?
my house.
35. What colour does no. 4 like?
idk,
every color ?
36. Are no.1 and no.5 best friends?
idk,
i think so. :O
37. Does no.1 have any pets?
nope
38. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
ehhh,
she's sexy,
but not the sexiest. ><
SORRY! x]
39. What is no.6 doing now?
still sleeping i guess.

EHHEHEHEHE!
wht the hell -___________-
going to vivo nowww.
i need to eat too. :O
<3 toodles :D

here in the limelight we shine ;

2008-11-11T20:00:00.003+08:00

ARGH,
i hate her like a millionzxzxzzbillionzxzxzxzzillionzxzxzxzx time cannnnnn! >;\
she's so annoying, always cutting in between, what the.
so kay poh, everything also want to know.
knn.
everything she does makes me feel angryy, like madness.
apparently, i guess only abram knows how i feel.
so irritating and extra laa.
but im like, SO GLAD shes not in the same combi as me.
THANK GOD.
i think the only person i hate is you.

OH !
i've got muscles alreadyyyyyy! YAY ? :D
LOLS.
competition is like 4 days ):
RAHHHH, and my theory sucks,
i dont know how to fit these stuffs in my head,
cant they ask us to memorise some song ?
i bet i could do so much better lahhhh , :)
RAWRRR , ):
sigh, tomorrow got 'A' Clique gathering, HORRAY ? :D
WAKAAKAAKAA, -.-
MARILYN ,
COME BACK FAAASTERRR! ):
:D
Apparently, i poured out most of my troubles to amalina, and vice versa :)
i hope she feels better, :D
and i did felt better ,
i poured myy troubles to abram also. :)
and i felt also, better .
OH YAH,
had training tday,
AIYOOOOOOOO . :(
how do i talk louderrrrr in front of strangers ? :O
anddddd.
BOUGHT books today. T-T
damn heavyyyyy, then we saw serena. :D
then went to tiong and makan,
bought keychain! :)
CHIEN YEE - BANGALA
SERENA- JAPANESE
ME- CHINA.
right ? :O
RAWR, i need to revise for FA. T_T
<3>

><

2008-11-09T22:34:00.005+08:00

it's okay, i'll just get used to it that you're hated forever in my life,
OH GOSH,
i haven't been on the web since like dunno when , -.-
>____________<
SIGH,
having FA comp trainings tmr,
though it's tiring, and sometimes likeawth,
im so gonna persevere on,
comp is this sat,
i don't want to let my mates and VIs down ,
):
CALENDER ,
10-12 NOV, Fa comp training,
15 NOV, FA COMP! ):
22 NOV, UIP CONTACT SESSION ,
6 DEC, UIP CONTACT SESSION
13-14 DEC, UIP CAMP .
16-20 DEC, YOUTH CAMP!
25-28 DEC, RCYC! :D
29 DEC, FD COMP TRAINING,

what a red cross filled holiday, -_______________-
oh whatever,
:(
LTC is like coming soon . =X
am i messing things up too much ?
sigh,
i miss marilyn, i miss telling her my secrets,
and camwhore with her, sigh.
let's just hope that i could get out of singapore.
AMEN.

quiz. -_______________-

2008-11-03T20:17:00.004+08:00

1. Do you eat alot of fast food?
OH,
a lot a lot a lot a lot, (:
i just ate fast food today,
MOS BURGERRRRR!
with CHIENIE LAOPO ! (:
2. Have you kissed anyone in 2008?
CHIENIE AND SHIMIN,
but im not a lesbian lahh,
i still like guys,
and im straight .
not like SOMEONE. :D
3.Were you happy when you woke up today?
kinda, cos i finally could loan the FA manual
from jiaqi, but something cropped up, T_T
but nevermind, im meeting her tomorrow again, :D
4. What did you last get sad about?
ermerm, kinda confidential,
i try to leak as much as possible, ><
kinda sad on friday,
i think.
ask CHIENIE or ABRAM ! (:
5.Do you eat candy on a daily basis?
ermmm,
not a daily basis lahh, i get diabetes liao loh,
maybe monthly ? IM HEALTHY! :)
6. What about in your 5th sent messages?
nothing much?
asking jiaqi whether she knows evelynn's contact. :)
7. Who was the last person you ate with?
CHIENIE LAOPO! (:
8. Who was the last person you took a picture of?
CHIENIE LAOPO! (:
again, -.-
9. When ordering sushi , what do you get?
ermerm,
either crab meat,
or
beancurd skin with skin.
10. Who was the last person that you sat to ?
sat to ?
sat with you meant ?
mother.
11. What were you doing at 10 am?
playing the computer ? :)
12. Have you change alot since summer?
DUH!
i've change A LOT! (:
13. What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?
a few days ago,
cos chienie said something kinda funny i think ..
then BOOM! lols.
14. Where is the place you want to be right now?
SOMEWHERE WHERE I COULD SHOUT ALL MY TROUBLES .
15. When was the last time you cried?
cried, maybe one session after red cross bahh,
teared a lot of times,
but cried cos of ..
=X FA.
16. What's your favourite song?
kinda a lot lehhh! ><
-Just wanna be with you,
- can i have this dance
-i want it all
-crush
-walk away
A LOT MORE LAHHHHHHHHHH,
ask me on msn,
17. What were you doing at 11 last night?
reading a book ?
18. who's is near you?
nobody?
nearest....my oldest sister ?
19. What were you doing at 5 am in the morning?
dreaming of idontknowwhat. -.-
20. What's bothering you right now?
something,
HIGHLY confidential.
21. Who was the last person to talk to you on the phone?
Amalina,
22. Whose house did you last go?
mine ?
23. Who honestly knows everything about you?
GOD , nobody on Planet Earth ever knows EVERYTHING about me,
my heart ? ;D
and my mind ?:D
and my soul. :D
24. Who broken your heart?
LIM CHIEN YEE, jkjk
ermmm, SOME GUY LAHH,
but im kinda over it already.
25. Honestly , do you love someone very much?
maybe God and my family, friends ?
maybe a few.
26. Who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
Chien i think?
-.- aain.
27. Are you still friends with the last person you kissed?
DUH, CLOSER THAN EVER .
28. Are there any parts of your body that hurts?
yes, my back, my leg, my butt, and my head. :D
MOST OF ALL, MY HEART
29. In the supermarket , the first thing that gets your attention is?
CHOCOLATE !
just like rachel ! (:
30. Drugs are?
Something that taufiq is free of ?
"DRUG -FREE! "
31. Which one do you hate the most?
which one ?
where got choices?
but i hate backstabbers who backstab ppl you
dont even know that well. FKER LA THEY .
32. How cool do you think you are?
AWESOMINGLY, FABULOUSLY ,
UNCOOL. -.-
33. Who was the first person that text you today?
JIAQI CHIPMUNK! (:
or is it CHIEN YEE ?
again. -.-
34. What was the first thing that you did this morning?
OPEN MY EYES! (:
35. Who was your last missed call on your cellphone?
Chienie. -___________________________-
i missed 5 calls. -.-
36. What is the last mistake that you made?
the photo frame thing,
idk how to explain here.
37. What are you listening to right now?
I WANT IT ALL :D
38. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
JIAHUA! :D
39. Who was the last person to call you?
Amalina! (:
40. Is there anything you want to say to someone special?
no matter what,
ill never give up on you ,
jiayous for th upcoming exams, :D

TAGGINGGGGG,
-CHIENIE!
-JOEY!
-SERENAA!
-ABRAM!
-AMALINA!

2008-11-01T15:57:00.003+08:00

Instructions :Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question,make it a total of19 questions. Then tag 8 people in your list,list them out at the end of the post.Notify them in their tagboard that he/she has been tagged.

1)What do people do that will make you hate he/she most?
backstabbing someone you dont know well
2)What is your most favorite thing to do?}
listening to music, making friends , being sociable.
3)What is the first thing that comes to your mind of when you think of love?
i dont know ? love is not forever ? :O
4)What kind of boyfriend / girlfriend do you want?
idk, somebody that loves me, nice and funny.
somebody that's christian ,
and must be financially good to support me :D
(not very hard laa)
5)Is there someone in your heart right now?
not anymore , SINGLE AND AVALIABLE ! (:
6)Do you believe that you can survive without money?}
money, hmm,
cannot survive with none,
and cannot have the lust for money,
idk. ><
7)Are you afraid of pain?
depends on what kind of pain,
if it's physical, maybe im a little afraid.
emotional, it's numb already.
8)What do you feel like doing now?
i wanna bowl bowl bowl . :)
9)If there's someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
over my dead body,
i'll be so embarassed and not come out of the
house for a month . ><
10)List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
she's funny sometimes, optimistic, loves chocolate like me ? :O
11)What is your 5 most passionate thing at this moment?
what's passionate :O,
hahah,
2G outing on wednesday (:
CG outing laterr (:
getting into 3F :
knowing that tomorrow will be a better day
knowing that it's cool to be with the people you like :O
im seriously talking crap.
12)If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would that be?
U-MIAN! (:
13)If you have a chance to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
Happiness , cos that is something you cannot measure,
whereas being rich, having more money,
thats something you could measure. :X
14)If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
stop lazing around like some pig. =X
15)If you are unhappy, what would you do?
if i could, i will scream it to shanghai to marilyn,
or else, ill keep it to myself,
or ill just post it in my blog,
not revealing the person's name though, :D
16)Which country do you like the most?}
Singapore, it's good to be home. -.-
im seriously talking crap.
17)Why are you in love with the person you're in love with now?}
im not in love, :D
18)Are you crappy ?}
oh yes, im very crappy, like now.
19}( am i suppose to change this question ? )
what are three things that you love about your life ?
'A' clique, family and God,

im gonna tagggggggg,
-ginu, :X
-desiree, :X
-amalina, :X
-jiaqi, :X
-rachel ng , :X
-fatin, :X
-kristin,:X
-marilyn, :X

(randomed pickkk ) ><

DEPRESSED && TIRED

2008-10-31T23:29:00.003+08:00

wow,
had lunch with chien and tricia and zahiya and diana, :D
then had FA later, so dint go for in-line skating , -__________-
so went to vivo waste time,
DAMN HOT EH THE WEATHER ,
i almost melted on the rooftop . ><
haahaa, looked at the dogs and hamsters today, AGAIN.
GOT RABBITTT! (;
damn cute :D
but i can't take picture :(
SO ANYWAYSZXZXZZXZXZXZXZ.
had a full lunch, chicken cutlet, -.-
dint finish half then left for school.
waited for 166 ,
it came like after i arrived the busstop 1 min, :D
thennnnnn, VERYYYY STUFYYYYY! ):
reached school, sat outside 209,
had memories,
then junyi called me,
so i went to foyer.
___________________________ THEN ,
had FA training, two case study , twice, TIRING! ):
perspired like shittzxzxzxzxzxzxzxz,
thennnnn went opp look for SEY-REE-NAHH .
she told me about her wanting to go to RC,
it's your choice girl, but ill welcome you with my widest hands :)
then went to dover 7-11 , bought bei bei mian, ate half then throw away ,
cose she had to rush home :D
then went home,
viewed the results,
DEPRESSED SEHHHHHH!
and im damn tiredd. :(
talked to abram ,desiree and jiahua on msn,
they kinda cheered me up a little ,
THANKS :D
and desiree was damn funny :D
okayy, my stomach's like growling, but i cant eat now,
what.. 11.38 -___________-
WTHHHH! ):
gonna sleep soon, :D

FOR THOSE WHO ARENT HAPPY ABOUT THEIR PLACINGS :
cheer up okayy ,
sleep tonight and tomorrow will be better ,
i assure you,
im kinda sad too,
but life has to go on right,
so let's just make use of what is in our hands now
and not resulting in more regrets,
no matter what happens,
ill be there for YOUUUUUU!
so just dont be saddd or angry or anything,
because.. I LOVE YOU , ( allswell . -.-)
oh whatever, :D

TO ALL PEOPLE WHO CURRENTLY HAVE STRESS,
ESPECIALLY TO SERENAA! (:
stay strong okayy ,
just to let you know that there's someone you can rely on,
it'll soon be over,
and i know that you can do it ,
because.. I LOVEYOU , -.- ( again from allswell )
whatever,
from joey :
(translated ) even though it's raining now, after the rain,
these rainbows will appear, and your troubles will be gone .
OH WHATEVER, i doont know what im talking about :D
but just stay strong, people around you dont wanna see you fall either .

TO SOMEONE :
i really dont know what to say to you,
seriously, i dont know what's wrong with you,
why are you stopping someone to choose something,
that doesn't even concern you,
and .. i really dont know what to say,
good luck with your new best friends,
im not gonna say goodbye,
because i think it's not worth to say it to
a person like you ,

WELLLLL, :D
OH, still have to do joey's question,
tmr lahhhh (;
TIREDDDDD! (:
srysry,
TOODLES! <33

146th post, -.-

2008-10-28T22:27:00.004+08:00

does that promise even count ?
why do we even have that promise in the first place
when we don't even get along well,
it's all fated ,
i really don't get it,
i want to screamm it all out,
but there's practically no one i could scream to,
what for ?
why do people always get the things they want ,
why is people so selfish and one-sided because of their friends,
i hate this,
go be with her for all i care,
since she's like your best friend now,
i don't want to care already lahh,
im happy to have these friends already,
bye, attention seeker,

2008-10-26T21:35:00.002+08:00
i broke down , seriously,
just broke down .
i'm hurt from the inside out,
you've devoured me, devil .
i promise you this is the last time im gonna do this,
once and for all , im sorry .
i love you all .
thanks to everybody who brought smiles into my life,
i thank God for you ,
just let me take care of this matter myself,
it'll soon be alright the next day .
Love ,
i meant that as brotherly and sisterly love .
truly ,
i don't LOVE anyone,
maybe some of my really close friends,
but to a guy,
10 letters, 1 word,
I-M-P-O-S-S-I-B-L-E
you know why ?
cause you are sucha timid mouse that wouldn't
get out of your stupid freaking hole ,
get a life , go to someone elses life and ruin theirs,
why ruin mine ?
i hate how much i love you boy ;
but i just can't let you go,
i hate that i love you so ,

HSM3 <3333333333!

2008-10-25T15:04:00.003+08:00

Can i have this dance - high school musical 3 :D

Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.

Won't you promise me
(now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing
(to keep dancing) wherever we go next

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance
(can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Take my hand,
I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you through it all

And you can't keep us apart
(even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)'
Cause my heart is (cause my heart is) wherever you are

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Oh
no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide'
Cause together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you (like you)
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do (way we do)
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

❤ this songg! :D
boring saturdayyyy ,
nothing much to do ,
it's been a week since the birthday celebration . (:
how cool ,
founded some nice hsm3 songs, :D
hawhaw , but i wanna buy the soundtrack ,
some kind soul sponsor me ? :)
it's the holidays alreadyyyy, :O
so fast . and trainings are arriving .
maybe i should just focus on competitions bahh ,
since, FA comp is drawing nearer, and i suppose
im the reserve or something . cant really remember what miss shamsiah said ,
oh well . FD comp is coming soon also ,
we're back to the same old dayss, just .. without leonard sirr , ):
SIGH.

well , got to go ,

❤ toodles :D

TODAY IS LOVEDD! <3

2008-10-24T22:01:00.002+08:00

LAWLS,
had extra maths class today, till wednesday. ):
thennn, watched movie today also.
andd, had RED CROSS today also. :D
thenn, had instant noodles as usual, but not the usual pepo.

well , where should i start ?
according to time barhh,
was kinda late for maths class , hehh, cause had breakfast with mom and pop,
thenn i was rushing through my breakfast lahh. ):
then had maths class, BORINGGGGGGGG~!
hahahha, okayy lahh.
sat beside daphne xiao jie and charmaine :D
thennnnnnnn, was kinda sleepy lahh.
supposed to eat breakfast with 2G's girls ,
but was too lazy to get out of bedd. ><

then watched movie,
amalina dint come, had some comittee thinggg,
hope it runs smoothly , " SANDLES UNDER THE STARS "
rightt ? haahaa, sry if i spell wrongg. :D
ermerm, then watched high school musical 3,
as usuall... , emotional movie sehh,
but i only teared when gabriella said she can't go back to east high again. LAWLS.
neverminddd, i'll leave the best to you all .

then had red cross , :D
supposed to go BLOODBANK,
but it was cancelled , dno whyy . (:
thennn went to labrador parrkkkk!
initially i can't go, but i guess the teachers took pity on
the ppl training for FA'COMP , :D
we went! (:
thanks YOs! :D
then had games luhh, won the second game against group 2 ,
hahahah, the first few game was behind group 3 by a feww , but ooh wells,
we're suppose to have fun there. CONGRATSSS GROUP 3 ,
okayy, then went back to school to do some bracelet thing
for the home visit next week, DAMN COOL!
hahahha, Xu zhi wei helped uss, AWESOME!
then falled in, falled out. :D
thenn had contact time, had three consent forms .
- RCY CHALLENGE!
-FA COMP
-FA DUTY! :D

hawhaw, damn cool !
but have to think twice about rcy challenge ehh, ):
kinda boring, but juniors MUST go.

then had instant noodles again ,
but chien and jiaqi and amalina left,
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY ?
ended up , kena dragged by abram to 7-11 ,
then only left ..
me, abram, aaron and james. -.-
thenn halfway buying , i saw a BIGGGGG MOTH!
it was HELL BIG , as in seriously HUGE.
lawls, then i was FREAGGING SCARED LUH .
then i asked abram help me to fill the noodles with hot water,
it's was freagging hot .
then halfway eating, we saw ..
ellysha, indah, forgot about the other sec 1 , then we saw yumni, savona, junyi, dian,
MISS TAI , MDM XU , MISS WONG . ><
i dont think miss tai expected me to be there,
cos she's like, " RACHEL ?! "
hahaha, kinda paisehh, but oh well .

hahhh, then went home :D
kinda tired like siao now, but it's all worth it,
RED CROSS 'A' CLIQUE ROCKS FOREVERRRRRRRRR ! :D

you're like a fake ;

2008-10-22T19:09:00.004+08:00

badd mood this week eh,
had mood swings like almost every week , ):
but i think i didn't really showed it out did i ?
hahs,
i dunno lahh,
so many things happened.
i can't seem to tolerate anyone who angered me for more than 10 secs,or maybe 5.
guess i should go for some anger management course. -__________-
wthhhh,
everything seemed so boring to me now,
even AUDI, ):
like a dungg.
just like my life.

do you even know how much she treasured the friendship she had with you?
up till now, even though she knows you don't really like her,
she's still hoping that one day you could buy that balloon for her,
why are you so ignorant about your surrondings ?
why dont you just wake up and realise how many people
you've hurt but they still treasure you ?
i know i have no rights to say all of this,
but i hope when you read this short paragraph,
you could understand in between the lines
the message i want to convey to you ,
ily friend, even though i don't really like your attitude,
i would try my best to adapt ,
God bless. <3

TO JULIAAA:
like omgg, i'll miss your hyper sessions like madd.
oh, and your screaming sessions, :D
may you adapt to the environment there. ily .

finally , the content of my post related to the title ,
TO : someone whom i really love, but really hate ;
i really don't know what to say,
stoning for five minutes and this is all i could write.
thanks for all the memories you've given me ,
friend.
could i even call you a friend ? or a betrayer ?
you're always so cheerful , but when you're angry ,
you are always not caring about other's feelings,
i guess that's how everybody live their lives.
well , i guess i don't want to bother about you anymore,
it's up to you to lead your own life ,
goodbye and ily , stranger .

BIRTHDAY WEEKENDS.

2008-10-19T16:48:00.002+08:00

SATURDAY
LOL,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEE,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEE,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEE,:D
WTHH, thanks;
Chien,Jiaqi,Abram,James,Jarett,
Amalina,Joey,Daphne,Charmaine
forr celebrating my birthday at east coast yesterday,Thanks to Alison also, for waiting so longg just to have dinner with MEE!
(:lol, so bhb.Went to rent a bike at east coast, like a OMG.
I CANNOT BIKE SOMEMORE, siannn, still can cycle like, 1m ? maybe .LOLS,thanks ALL of you all , for encouraging me not to giveup, even though i did, the next time we reach there, i'll try my best not to give up! :Dbut still thank you. after returning the bike, played volleyball and monkey.STUPID ABRAM , hee.made me be monkey for like twice ?SORRY AH ABRAM, you know what happen lahh.HEE.Then went to wash up, dint know my phone and EZ link in my pocketthey were wet, but still alive. MIRACLES! (:then waited for bus. SIANNN, long story,we splited luhh, then me joey and jiaqi took cab to bedok,then the bus arrived. BUT IT WAS DAMN LONG. it took one WHOLE big loop. -____________-then jiaqi went home first.then joey and me kena seperated , LOLthen waited for one hour ? :D:D no laa. about half an hour. ):DAMN LONG.then ate at 10 plus,
ALISON ARRIVED! (:
too bad jarett's gone. ):
LOLS,then ate macs, mom was like rushing me home. ):then we went home (:

TODAY,
had church with chien
then we were late luhh.so cabbed there. :D
then we WERE late. ):
thenn had the usual thing.:D
except for a new pastor
PASTOR DIXSON! (:WELCOMEWELCOME!
haahaas.then after DCG, chien told the whole class to sing birthday song,
like a paiseh luh.):then took shuttle bus,
SANG happy birthday song again,
oh , and got glitter on me):
DAMN PAISEHHH! ):
i hate youuuzxzxzxzxzxz! ):
just jokinngggg.
thanks for EH-VER-REE-BAHH-DEE that wished me happy birthday!
(:LOVE YOU ALL! (:
thanks ;CHIEN ,JIAQI, JAMES, JOEY,AMALINA for the present.<3333!:D

:)(:

2008-10-16T20:26:00.003+08:00

LOL, im not going to care about her already lahh.
it's like a omgosh ? :D asking her to spam my blog ?
it's like, spam all she want luhh. i don't mind, she makes
my blog livelier. THANKS !

Didn't really saw my overall. ): i don't even think i can get into
3EFF, and even if i do, i guess im gonna appeal out,
I WANT TO BE WITH MY FRIENDS. RAWR ,
like a damn gay .
WHATEVER, so ..
tomorrow got Red Cross, WEARING MUFTI ! :D
how cool.
'A' CLIQUE IS GONNA BE REUNITED AGAINN. i guess,
hope people won't pon , (:

OH BTW, this is MY blog, and a blog, FYI,
is a internet DIARY. it's to write my THOUGHTS AND EXPRESSIONS,
who are you to stop me from writing ?
did i even write her name ? does she admit she's what
i've stated in there ?
if she's not, why is she caring so much ?
are you admitting ? :O

i don't know whether i should go for class gathering on sat,
it's like my birthday celebration, but this class gathering holds
a big purpose. -.- , SHOULD I GO ?
if i go, there's some people who doesn't want to see me there,
if i don't go, i think it makes people life better, wouldn't it ? :O
SIAN ,
don't go then don't go,
GOOD LUCK _______!
missxsxsxsxsxss youuuu ❤
RACHEL YEO.

called off

2008-10-15T20:23:00.003+08:00

got my results back,
not very ideal,
but at least passes ?

let's just say the birthday thing is over.
i don't feel like celebrating it anymore,
thanks, chien, bridget and abram .
listening to my troubles again and again.
thank God for giving me such friends.

RACHEL NG ;
i don't "don't like" you anymore,
why wouldn't you understand ?
why would you ask an outsider to settle this ?

OH LORD, give me strength to pull off this,
AMEN.

end- of - year 2008

2008-10-14T22:17:00.004+08:00

freakking arse
hole yearr,
why must there be so many things happening in the world now ?
why must there be so many kay-poh kiaas and aunties ?
why must there be such un-civilised civilians ?
why must there be love ?
why must there be friends ?
why must there be trouble ?
why must there be a trouble-maker everytime ?
why must there be such suckers in people's life ?
why must there be pangseh-kiaas ?
why must there be a winner and a loser ?
why must there be a friend-stealer ?
why must there be disputes between friends ?
why must there be gossipers who just can't keep their mouth
shut and gossip like nobody's business ?
why must there be life ?

because life sucks.

could people just shut up ?
could people just stop saying the things other people don't
want to hear in front of them ?
could people just be contended with what they have ?
could people pursue their dreams and yet not a complain ?
could people live everyday without swearing ?
could people stop whining ?
could people stop gossiping ?
could people stop wanting and give more ?
could people just change back to the way they were ?
could people be like before ?
could people stop hating and start loving ?
could people maintan war peace ?

Sadly, people can't.

TODAY ;

2008-10-13T20:27:00.003+08:00

FIRSTLY ,
GOOD LUCK FOR ALL 'O' LEVEL TAKERS.
JIAYOUUUSSS! (:
THEN ,
had a class gathering today. -_____________-
HAHA, i dint stayed long,
went there with jiaqi, SO WHATEVVERR ;D
then saw loysius && lovelle.
and then weiyangg, then the girls ; :O
ANNETTA , EVAN, LOVELLE , JULIA, DIANA,
practically most of them were DAMN chio :D
and thennn, (looks at myself) , im no where there. :X
HAHA, then went to window shop a while,
james broke his sandals. LOL.
then he had to buy a new one, OH WELL.
then went for lunchh, BURGER KING! :)
then me && diana && jiaqi had to leave,
so they left for sentosa,
and we continue enjoying our lunch.
then chien called, say abram not going kbox. -_____________-
sucha pangsehh-kiaa. LOL, ( i know what happen lahh, jkjk )
thennnnnnnnnnn jiaqi and me went with chien to kbox. :D
sang quite a lot of songs. :O
i was searching for jonas brothers, to excite jiaqi :D:D
then she was like, " OH MY GOSHHHHHHHH! "
i was like, "haha":D

TO JIAQI :
dont care about that notevenworthacowdung, :D
if she uses her looks to get the way she wants,
she has no life, so dont let a person like her,
who has no life, to control your emotions . :D
insteadd, LET YOURSELF FREE GIRL!
it's the end of the year already.
who knows ? maybe next year she different class from you.
just let loose, look forward to your results manns! (:

TOODLES! ♥

detailed post :D

2008-10-12T22:10:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHAH! :D
exams are like over, i know i've mentioned that, :D
just a more, explained post of what i've done after exams,
stayed for card games, :D
thenn VP Saw! :O
askk us to keep, oky lahh, at least got warning .
then went to VIVO watch movie,
th end, we chose HOUSE BUNNY , AWESOME MOVIE! :D
thenthen , th movie made me learnt a thing,
" if you count on your looks , then you're nothing "
:D:D and another thing "manhole "
LAWLLS. :D
after we bought the movie ticket, we went kopitiam to eat, :D
then serena got LOST! ):
then i went to "treasure-hunt " her , :D
kinda fun , but very hungryyyyy ,
so had my fish and chips, ):
eat one quarter " full already "
then gave abram EVERYTHING :D
ahahahahah,
then bought popcorn combo, got waterbottle seh,
then went to private spot, then played games, then went homee ;D
DARNNN , wednesday got results . :x
WTF. -.- DAMN HELL SCAREDDDDDD !
GOD BLESS ME! =X

IT'S OVERRRR! (:

2008-10-10T18:48:00.003+08:00

YEAHHHH DADDYYY , IT'S OVERRRRRRRR! (:
it's like the last paper today luh . :D HELL HAPPY !
ohoh, and i passed my piano test also lah. like a :O
and my big day is 9 days more ! (:
HOW KEWL !
and im getting back my results on wednesday , i think.
Does anyone know when does school holidays starts ? :D
IM LIKE A HELLLL HAPPPYYYY! (:
and i know who led me through my darkest hours,
CREDITS : GOD , CHIEN , AMALINA, JOEY , JIAQI , ABRAM.
sorry if i missed out your name ;

i don't really like youknowho anymore, it's just that i kept lying to myself ,
that i liked him, but moreover, im just a subsitute;

LAST THREE DAYS -_-

2008-10-07T22:10:00.002+08:00

5 more papers to go, 3 more days to go and it's killing me.
12 more days till my big day! (: it's like a awesome dude ! (:
:O, it's like, my sister's papers are like, GONE. finished,
and im like freagging jealous luh. -___________-
TML MATHS PAPER ,
JYJYS PEPOS, DO YOUR BEST AND HE WILL DO THE REST , :D
like what miss yeow said,
say a silent prayer before you start, it really helps (:
KEMPAHTEEHHH! (:
it's only a few days more, and we could party till our pants dropsxsxsxsxsx! :D
i can't wait! (:
GOTTA CHIONNGG MY WAYYY OUT OF THIS STUPID MAZEE! (:
well, toodles ♥

ENGLISH PAPER ONE! ):

2008-10-03T15:16:00.004+08:00

COUNTDOWN : 16 DAYS! (: [how awweeeesoommmeeee]

WELL, one paper down (: , 9 more papers to go , 7 days more ;
GET WELL SOON XINGCHI! heard you got 3 WEEKS EMM-CEE, :O
WELLLLL. English paper was kinda difficult. :
BUT ANYWAYS, ALL THE BEST TO THOSE TEACHERS ! (:
they must have spent a lot of time manns . :O
LETTER WRITING WAS PLAIN STUPID. I dont even know what im talking about in the letter. when i finished and read back, i shook my head. ):
HAWHAWHAW (:

TO A EX-CLASSMATE :
I really missed the old you,
where you're sucha nice person,
not like now, i dont want to hate you,
your attitude made me,
you dint used to be like this,
now, you just simply act your life out the way you want,
let me tell you,
not everyone could tolerate with your childish acts .
not everyone could give way to you.
I miss th old you ):

BLEHHH, i hate you

2008-10-01T13:55:00.005+08:00

I hate when people use me as their subsitutes,
especially people i dont like. Get a life ah, no friends
then just be a loner for that moment lah. -.-
just to think that i have to spent the rest of my years in fairfield with her,
it bothers me a lot, i can't mug now , seriously.
But moreover, im just a subsitute . Isn't that so ?
Whenever somebody needs me, they call me,
but when they have other friends, they put me aside,
so if this is call a FRIEND.
then i think i could be a very good friend.

MUGGAHHHHSXSXSXSXSXSXSXSXSXXSXXSX----------------------------------- .

WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR FRIGGIN PROBLEM ? -.-

shuddap you notevenworthapigdung;

2008-09-30T23:16:00.004+08:00

RAWR,
EOYS ARE LIKE COMING IN .. 32 hours ? 1 day 12 hours ;
im so not mugging, i have no interest in mugging anymore, and yet im still afraid i won't get into through train, WTF.
sighs,
kinda stressed out , i want to get to through train, im afraid i can't pass through 'N' Level, ):
WTH LAH! my results are like failing, again and again, -.-
STUPID DNT LAH! waste time -.- ,
i dont even like that subject. -______________-
RAWRRRRRRRRRR,
i dunno lah.
SOME STUPID CHILDISH things happened in class,
aiyahhhhh. i dont know lah. i want to get out of that damn thing and go through train, SO COOL LAH! dont have to face the people i dont like. -____________________-
why is everybody driving me crazy nowadays?
FIRST, her,
THEN, her,
THEN, him.

RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! ):

gonna mug for the rest of the days i can mug lahhhh. ):
my exams are like so gonna be flunked. _________________ .
hoooooooooooooooooooooooooow ?

WHY IS EVERYBODY TREATING ME THIS WAYYYYYY.
I HATE ALL OF YOU! I HATE HATE HATE HATEEEE YOU,
-_________________________________________________-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! (:

2008-09-25T20:02:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL NG!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAPHNE && ZULFAIZ!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVELLE && EMILYN!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNJIE!

LONG WEEK EHH! (:
MUST MUG LIKE A DEAD CATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT! (:
TOODLES! <3

SHUCKSS! O:

2008-09-15T21:46:00.002+08:00

:O, suppose to be mugging, but i have to say this, so here i go.

i dont know why you're like that, you backstab people like almost everyday ?
even Rachel ng is like, SO MUCH better than you lah,
want to backstab me, FOR WHAT ? confront me face to face lah,
gossip so much, careful of your mouth ah,
i dont get you at all.
i know i sometimes very buay-bah, tell me lah.
i could change ? even if you dont like me, you shouldn't have told it to the person you hate lah,
the person closest to me in Red cross,
i regretted .

I WANNA THANK MY MOM AND SISTER FOR BUYING ME THE BAG I WANTED.
i got nothing to ask for already, and i WILL do my best manns! (:
I REALLY MUST MUGGGG! 2 weeks and 5days. WTH , why isnt the teachers doing anything to push me ?

MUGGSSS!

2008-09-13T13:53:00.002+08:00

LAST POST UNTIL EOY FINISHES .___________.
oh my gosh, like 2 more weeks ? 14 days lahh.
really must mug like a dead fish,
RAAAAAAAAAAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
my mom bought like, 4 assesment, wtf ?
but like , she cares for me lah, so whatever, i dont care, :D
this week 's like, SO FAST.
esp friday. :O
i was like, almost late everyday lah. :D thank God it's raining on friday.
SIANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!
how to score for english, chinese and d&t manns.
this suckkxsxsxsxssxs,
LIKE A POOP ,

need go mug lerhs, not coming back till EOYs are oveeeeeeeeeeeeerr. :D
so longs,
xoxo.

MATERIALLISM

2008-09-10T20:50:00.003+08:00

" Love at first sight, never thought it would happen to me "

Ever tried thinking of the day where you have no friends or no one to talk to before ? i did, even the thought of it makes me uneasy, :O .
but i just cant help it, so let me just say this once and for all ,
III HATEEEEEEE YOUUUUUUUUU!
i shouldnt have even came today , even though i was feeling sick ,
the thing that i dreaded that would happen again, HAPPENED.
WHAT IS THIS ? PART TWO ?
i hate this, i hate everything,
i dont like this, AT ALL .
WWWWWWHHHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYY ?

what the heck is wrong with you,

2008-09-06T10:40:00.003+08:00

SIGH, this week

MONDAY
-went out with chien and joey,
-went to macs,
-went to JE library to mug
-ended up half way mugging and halfway talking
-scolded by the uncle for using the plug,
then dont put underneath the opener lahh, how to see? NOOB.
-moved to a table, FULL OF VANDALISM, :O
-joey went off, me and chien havingg dinner at macs.
- HOMAHH SUH-WEEET HOMAHH

TUESDAY
-went to KAP macs,
-waited for chien and serena to arrive
-mugged a LOT
-chien arrived, then we thought of calling james, since he stays so near,
-then he arrived, without books, -.- , how to study ?
-then serena arrived, then we kinda played games before we really started mugging,
we played, truth or dare, then who what huh, (and OMG, it was sucha short game). HEARTATTACK! (:
-after james left, we REALLY started mugging , then serena was like, 'ban ye fei li wo' , LOLS, im like WTH ? (:
-then it rained, and serena had no UM-BER-REEA-LAA, :D then me and chien had to share with her,
-was quite a funny trip , :D cos there was this narrow path, then we didn't know who to go first, then we all squeezed together. LOL :D
-then waited for bus, my bus is the last to arrived, gee.

WEDNESDAY -
-went out with JIAQI , :D
-went to jurong library , MUGMUGMUG!
-then we were kinda tired, and HUNGRYYY!
-so we went to KFC to eat, left me kinda fulll .
-then she wanted to go POPULAR, :D so we went,
-talked about who can be chairman next year :O
-waited for shuttle bus to IMM ,:D
-kinda crowded, >:\
-then we studied at burger king .:D:D:D
-went home :D

THURSDAY
-went out with JOEY AND JIAQI! :D
-go to , JURONG LIBRARY , (AGAIN)
-at first , we could really study ,
-then joey came with her laptop , and played AUDITION!
-i realised my skills were really gonne, or they were never there ?
-played a little, MUG a little, then went to POPULAR ! (:
-saw the chong qing jiang gui de disk , kinda scaryy . :S
-then i went to buy pens :D
-HOMEEE! :D

FRIDAY
-went out with JOEY AND JIAQI, suppose to be with chien also, but she chose the other way ,
>:\
-MUGGED at macs, :D AWESOME.
-then went to buy some stuffs for our swimming later ,
-we bought, CHIPSS , and MARS BAR! , and our own drinks, joey bought 100 plus, i bought SPRITE, it was realeeh gasseh, then jiaqi bought her own bottle :D
-went to swimmm :D then we stopped, seeing some boys playing BALL , :D
-Joey kept saying one guy had moobs, (guy's boobs)
-i was like, STOP IT! (:
-then we bathed, i took a longer time , SORRY!
-then we mugged outside my house, LOL,
-then jiaqi had to go home,
-so me and joey went to lot one . :D
- i went to buy food :D and went home (:

WHAT A WONDERFUL WEEK! (: WITHOUT THEM ! :D

):

2008-09-02T22:19:00.001+08:00

i give up, happy hating,

depressed AGAIN,

2008-09-01T20:41:00.003+08:00

i really dont want to hate you, i have no idea why are you doing this to me, is it me or somebody else ? i dont get it, can someone explain ? the friendship we made would not be erased, i hope. Partially , im quite surprised, angry, upset, confused, and kinda emoish, cos i really dont get it. You started ignoring me like no one's business. A moment ago, you were kinda close to me, the next minute, you actually ignored me. Kinda embarrased, i almost cried. After the event, i called out your name again, you turned, i was happy, but you turned back, i was confused, really. Those hyper-ish RC sessions, those gossiping sessions, those funny lessons we had together, those secrets exchanging sessions , those chilling sessions, those makaning sessions, those staying back sessions, OTHER THAN RC, those camwhoring sessions, those ponning sessions, those funn sessions after school, studying sessions. I dont want to say goodbye to them, i just want to know what happened? Tell me, i could change? i could at least quit the CCA or something. Or maybe just keep a distance from you, just at least tell me what happened ?

TODAY,
went out with joey and chien to study, O: quite okay lahh, joey went kinda siao-ish . she's like, tie two pony tails ? :D then we took some photos, SHOULD I UPLOAD ? :D maybe i should. :D sighh, SO COOL!: D sighh, have to mugg manns :D

HAHAHAHS! :D TODDLES! :D <3

FOREVER FRIENDS BEST ?

2008-08-30T14:59:00.003+08:00

i just realised, friends cannot be forever, those phrases,
Friends are leaving me, i dont know why. I very much want to know why,
but i guess it's better that i dont know why than i know. It must be very hurtful.
I dont know why she wants to steal friends, when she already has a best friend, which she has pangseh-ed times and times again , and her best friend tolerated her, she has forgotten how her best friend had helped her last year, when she had no friends, how ungrateful , tsktsk. Now, she's stealing people's friend, How greedy, spreading rumours about this and this, how childish can she get, i hate her a lot, but on the other hand, i like her quite a bit too . i just hope that she wouldn't become a pest, backstabber, pangseh-er anymore. B'cose people wil hate her for that, now five girls and counting, dude. laughing out loud. She's damn rude, taking people's things without asking, so inconsiderate, your name's not labelled there right, ___ she's like a big bamboo loser. >:]

REDCROSS :
thursday ,
was released earlier due to FIRST AID EXAM, stayed overnight to mug, AWESOME DUDE! :D
stayed overnight with, amalina and jiaqi. then had to go dhoby ghaut, quite a long story, SIGH. me, jiaqi, alison,amalina,aaron , savona, cassandra had to stay outside, we were so afraid. like, we're so gonna fail manns, then after tat, we asked dingquan to come to the door and talk, so he whispered, he said, 'we got retest, ' we were liike, 'sure or not, dont lie to us leh, ' then he said, ' SURE, i swear' then jiaqi/ amalina was standing there, then she say, wahh, his breath damn smelly leh, damn funny. ding quan failed lehh, by ONE mark. WTF ? then had pratical, i paired with jiaqi, she did large arm sling, i did elevationsling, quite okay lah, the instructor's demanding manns. then had CPR, first time was like a goner, she asked me, how to check for foreign objects, i was like open the mouth and dig ? LOL . she asked me to get out and come back in later. LOL, siann. but still passed laa. DAMN HAPPY :D.

PIANO,
FRIDAY,
had piano test, i have a slight chance to pass and fail. ):
it's like, im so not prepared. siann, had teachers day,
ONCE A TEACHER, ALWAYS MY HERO
that's the theme, LOL, we had to design a shirt, O: not everybody designed.
the performance was a lil boring. except, the video, the song sang by jean, HERO.
:D

RED CROSS
SATURDAY,
had world red cross day today, i thought had to reached school by 7.15, lOl, turns out im actually quite early. :D but i forgotten to bring, CCA badge, BUNNET, HAIRNET, but thank God, red cross room have hairnet, jiaqi's bunnet too small >< . THANKS ALISON FOR BRINGING JIAQI'S CCA BADGE! (: then i dunno what happened, i called out amalina's name, she dint replied, like 4 times?so i guess she's mad at me? i dnoo. O: so i paired up withhhhh, chien ; natasha and cherra. :D quite tiring though, had a few fainting spells, but felt okay after resting a little,
during our break right, i was watching the teevee, then suddenly aaron jumped out, i was like O: OMG, seriously shocked. then he sat down at the table, like big boss like that, ( chien told me that ) DAMN FUNNY SIAH! then we went to other blocks, found out james and his group mates, Arthur and that bitch, had covered the block already. So , we went for second break :X , was really tired.
Then that bitch scratched chien la, nothing better to do siah . >:\ then walked back to school, had a nice chat withhhh, chien, aaron, james, and kityee. :D was quite funny though. Then i shouted amalina's name again, she turned to look and turned back. i guess she was really mad. i meann, what did i do ? i dont get it.

NOW,
at home, blogging, LIKE DUH.
tried mugging, but felt too sleepy,
so i guess, ill take a nap and back to mugging :D
SO LONG, dude and dudettes ;D
toodles. <3

BADDDDDDDDDD MOODSWINGS ):

2008-08-25T21:27:00.002+08:00

ARH, i hate my life, why are people irritating me ? childish acts, tsk. (: felt so bored, havent really startedd mugging , i dont know why too. O: IM LIKE SOO LAZYYY! ): and im so gonna fail DNT and Lit and Maths and Hist and English and Chinese and Science and practically EVERYTHING. i hate DNT , i never seem to understand those mechanisms, those motors, wth ? and my car cant even move a metre, OMG. sigh, EOYs are coming fast manns, im so not preparinggggg , WHAT THE ,someone save me ? i dont understand those maths pyramid, what pythagoras' Theorem? LIKE A OMG, i dont know what the hell is that, FLUNKFLUNKFLUNK . im really scaredd, i want to go through train, ): but im scared of my standard.
TODAY
HAD 2 hours OF CHINESE, cant stand it lahh, but teacher got sore throat, :D i just cant seem to concentrate during chinese, whenever i concentrate, somebody will talk to me, unrelated stuffs, OMG , im so failing languages . Science, had labb, CIRCUITS are as fun as usual. :D had some heating and magnectism thing :D SO FUNNN :) History, OMG, today's history was the BESSTT , i passed history test ,like FINALLY . and i got 17 half! like a damn happy ! :D MATHS, had some water thingy , made me understand MORE, but not enough, O: learnt volume thingy, :D CC, not much, just going through, science homework , O: then had some NE Survey, HOW NICE, it took so long . GOT TWO SECTIONS SEH, wth ? (: but enjoyed it though, but the class was REALLY noisy, dint know what to do, just shouted stop talking, no one ever listens ? :D sighhhhh, loysius dint came today, SO SUAY ah, i dint know .:D thennnn forgot to takeattendance. sighhhhhhh. LOL. then never go for the council thing also. SIAN . HELP ME ! ? :D

Just Melancholistic;*

2008-08-16T17:42:00.004+08:00

I seriously cannot believe you're gone , the 1 and 2/3 years i had been with you. i miss you so much , ): it's too hard to overcome this melancholy, marilyn . Remember , BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES WILL NEVER BE REPLACED . I MISS YOU;
I MISS YOUR SMILE , and DOG.

I MISS THOSE DAYS ;*

Here's you tao-poking joey, she must be in great pain.

Here's you , dawn and joey , mostly joey gets to be flat . so that's good ? :D

Here's you and shimin on mount faber . I STILL KEEP MEMORIES . (:

be careful not to scare those halloween kids ;DHere's the sweet racing compeitition, guess who won ?well, i guess it's not really winning, but snatching (:
as childish as ever! (:

still remembering those vivo memories .
loving the floor so much, tsktsk.
The East Coast thing, how mean can you be to abram ? O:

FRIENDS FOREVER [:

TODAY

Sent marilyn off today , it was the saddest day of my life , ): i kept crying , but asking myself to control until she leaves, it was DAMN sadd. ): hope shanghai is good for you larh , hope you can adapt to the new environment , and hope that your chinese will be A1 instead of , C5 ( no offence) :D but seriously, i miss you so . I miss the swimming pool part, the mcdonalds, the school part, i miss meeting you in 74 , i miss molesting you X: i miss coming to your house , i miss your laughter that makes me and amalina laugh, i miss your fun games, that i always seem to dont understand , i miss your invitation to your house , i miss kah-chiao-ing you, i miss seeing you in between classes, i miss camwhoring with you, i miss ponning classes with you ( a little last year) , i miss you and natalia's crazy actions, i miss putting the class register with you and amalina, i miss tickling you, i miss playing the swing with you, i miss who what huh-ing you, i miss bubbletea-ing with you, i miss going opposite with you, i miss going to bukit timah plaza when it's raining with you, i miss eating apple chips with you, i miss baking cookies with you, i miss playing monopoly , titi , and uno with you. i miss you standing for me when i needed that, i miss you hearing my troubles, i miss hearing your troubles, i miss calling you bangbang, i miss calling you mei, i miss calling your house phone, i miss getting crazy with you , (during march holidays with chien) , i miss you class captain-ing , i miss emo-ing with you in vivo, i miss truth truth and nothing but the truth-ing with you, i miss your secrets, i miss our "gossips" , i miss joking with you, i miss your beautiful plans for everything , i miss your wonderful brain, i miss you singing on the phone, i miss you telling me what song you like, i miss swimming with you, i miss tao-poking you, i miss taking neoprints with you, i miss trying out new things with you, i miss eating with you, i miss you helping me take the cmf (X:) hee.
I MISS YOU ! ):

after saying a goodbye to marilyn , we went to eat, got very hard for me to cool it down , there's just so many things i miss about her, so we went to popeyes to eat breakfast, damn hungry, the photos are with siti , so must wait, after popeyes-ing, we went to vivo , had those HAPPY memories there, esp the horse thing, im always banging onto marilyn's horse, remembered the rooftop , we had our footprints marked there, so, just enjoy yourself in shanghai , dont get a china boyfriend back , remember to bring extra clothes to bathe if you're going swimming, dont be so forgetful, dont take things so lightly, (OH MANNS, im sounding like your mom) :D just, remember that there are people in singapore, waiting for you to come back.

Yunxin, Sarah , Nat , Carissa, Emporio , Tricia, Chien, Joey, Me, Abram , Zhe hui, Nigel, or should i say , the whole 2F'08, and whole 1H '07 and Stacie, Hans, your church mates , bingbing and bongbong [: , MALINA, everybody are waiting for you to come back, so go to grade 9 and put in your best, I'll see you 4 years later? okay, get a boyfriend back , by then . (: LOL . jkjk :D but if you have, must show me his face, (:

Best Friend ?

2008-08-14T19:25:00.002+08:00

Best Friend ? i dont have one. but i've got close friends.
Friends , is just a subsitute for partner . oh i see,
isn't that true ? when you have sorrows, usually you go to friends , isnt it so ?
but im different , in a way, i dont have a uber close friend to talk to .
so that's something deprived . i guess ?

TODAY

Had Two tests in the beginning of the day , so suay, first was history and then science, i reckon i did badly for both . HEE , cose i dint study much ? i did for science la . history, honestly, i wrote crap . ): bt who cares, the end process is only for my parents to show off to their colleagues what . isnt that what always happen ? when you have bad results, they scold you like some shit, when you have good results , they dont praise you , but go around boasting that she herself or he himself have teached his / her daughter / son right. WTF.
im writing crap again . :D

YESTERDAY
had PE , fun as ever. :D SIGHS ! we played captain's ball , a bit tiring though, i cant defend cose im too short, shut up darren teo. Then had maths , forgot to bring 2B , O: then stand behind the classroom , sat with diana to do some cuting of pyramids thingy. (: had mt , letter writing, WTH . had english letter writing also , 150 words, zunzun :D not bad right ?

i saw your face, so demoralised, felt like hugging you, but im so helpless. i only just see you walking past me with no expression on your face, am i suppose to laugh at that ? ):

LIARSLIARS >:\

2008-08-11T00:13:00.004+08:00

heres a happy birthday to joey .

I finally agreed with marilyn , no one really bothers, so this is how people treat a FRIEND . i regretted , a lot .
i wished i could be like her , i want to leave here , it's sucha miserable life im leading here ,
when you are lonely , people ask you , " you okay or not " it's just a form of making themselves feel better and not the "bad guy". I'm really pissed off. No one really have to bother about me , after all i'll be fine after a while . isn't that what always happens ?
felt pangsei-ed today , when we reach there, i finally realised, nobody waits for me , once they have their own fun , they'll leave friends alone. thanks to nithya and zahiya , liven my spirits up .
im really pissed , someone help ?
want to act punk with me right ? come lah . i scared ah ?
i really hell pissed now , i think i could break someone's bones.
LOVE, FRIENDS , FOREVER ?
i hate those three words , really hate them , cose they dont exist .

True Friends - Hannah Montana

[VERSE 1]We sign our cards and letters BFF
You've got a million ways to make me laugh
You're lookin' out for me; you've got my back
It's so good to have you around
You know the secrets I could never tell
And when I'm quiet you break through my shell
Don't feel the need to do a rebel yell
Cause you keep my feet on the ground
[CHORUS 1]You're a true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night'
Til it's alright again
You're a true friend
[VERSE 2]You don't get angry when I change the plans
Somehow you're never out of second chances
Won't say "I told you" when I'm wrong again
I'm so lucky that I've found
[CHORUS 2]A true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night'
Til it's alright again
[BRIDGE]True friends will go to the ends of the earth
Till they find the thing you need
Friends hang on through the ups and the downs
Cause they've got someone to believe in
[CHORUS 3]
A true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
No need to pretend
You're a true friend
You're here till the end
Pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night'
Til it's alright again
You're a true friend [3x]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! :D

2008-08-09T08:25:00.002+08:00

43 years of independance . (:
i don't think im going anywhere today. it's like a family day . [: and SINGAPORE'S DAY! :D

TO MARILYN meimei :
time really flies . those who doesn't cherish you , put them aside. carry all those HAPPY memories we had . not the sad ones. ill miss you a lot . like the letter states. [:

TO BRIDGET :
LOL. dont think too much laa. (: it's like , you think too much will have pimples :D

I guess i'm over you . really , ive been ignoring you , is im trying to "hibernate" myself from you . it seems so hard , but really , you have treat me as a subsitute for her . and im quite upset about it . ):

i hate how much i love you boy

2008-08-08T21:11:00.004+08:00

I TOTALLY LOVE RED CROSS SEC TWOS's 08 'A' PEPO! :D
Aaron , Abram , Alison , jiAqi , Amalina , jArette , jAmes, ethAn , rAchel , jessicA , siti nur indrA , guAnyu. it's like a madness laa. :D
hahas . today , had like national day celebration . so i met , diana, jiaqi , jessica , amalina and jarette at jurong . i never knew jarette was SOOOOO FUNNY! :D , then we went to the mcdonalds and eat, FULL HOUSE MANNS! D: then we found a seat , and ate breakfast , then it was hell late , so we sort of rushed there. when we reached the bishan stadium , at first it was boring , cose i was at the stadium , i was wishing i could go for first aid duty. so i went down to meet jiaqi to get my bottle . then we talked laa, then after i came up , i asked mrs ho whether i could go for first aid duty, she say , got anyone to replace you ? rachel ng was like , me lor -.- wtf . Then she say , go lor. i was HELL happy! ;D then i went down to look for miss tai , i asked her , she say , can! i was HELL HIGH! :D then , me , grace and jiaqi went to patrol with the school, had three casualties today. (:
after forming the heart shape ,
we went to junction 8 to makan , so i was like , WANT TO WATCH MOVIE ? :D everyone said yes , almost everyone . so .. we went to food court and eat lunch , i ate ramen with jiaqi , then abram and jessica ate rice :D then we were gonna watch movie , SO ,
me, jiaqi , amalina , jessica , siti zahiya , abram and ethan came :D aaron , joey and alex went home D: then we watch money no enough 2 . WTH , it's damn touching laa. ): GO WATCH! :D i cried 3 times . ): i got HUELING! [FEELING] then ate dinner and went home :D

2008-07-28T22:20:00.002+08:00

i don't get it , does angry gives you the rights to throw tantrums ? SERIOUSLY , i dont get it , like i've been throwing my tantrums all over, im unhappy about something , people are unhappy about me , i seriously want to just shout it all LOUD ! ): TEACHERS , the word that bothers every students every day, like a OMG , ): FRIENDS , the word that sometimes make people feel comfortable, or uneasy , i just dont get it . You dint come , and you're like , boasting away ? is it my fault that you dint come ? truth is , you dint make the effort to come . OH WELL.

i got 16/30 for maths test, IM SO NOT HAPPY ABOUT THAT :\
howhowhow ? i think im lagging behind, but im not doing anything about it . O: HOW ?
i seriously am gonna cry out loud already,

TODAY , i saw a young kid crying cose she couldnt find her mom , i was LOST , or should i say, we both were lost , she started crying and looking at people, hoping to find her mom , i guess sometimes we're like that , we get distractions and often lure away from important things , then when we realised we need it , you felt lost , and don't know what to do . i was upset , i was going to cry , i holded back my tears , the feeling of LOST , it's hard to describe , but easy to demostrate in real life , my heart felt SO LOW , ):

FAIRFIELD RED CROSS!

2008-07-26T21:43:00.002+08:00

MANYMANYMANY THINGS HAPPEN .
CAC ,
FAREWELL ,
BEACH CLEANING ,
HOUSE WARMING .

REALLY GROWN THROUGH ALL THESE PROGRAMMS .
besides house warming . it made me love RED CROSS like, alotalot . of course , FD COMP and my platoon mates :D FUNFUNFUN .
CAC - grown in holistic health (: ,
farewell , hmm , learn to tickle desiree maam harder ? :D ,
BEACH CLEANING - grown in picking up rubbish , bonding with SCGS RED CROSS ! :D and most importantly , KNOW WHAT I'M PICKING UP! :D
house warming was REALLY FUN! amalina not there, like HALF the fun is GONNE! ): but like , we got wet in the end . OH AND EDUARDO SIRR IS SCARED OF COLD WATER! (: and alison plucking his hair :D

LET IT ALL OUT GIRL.

2008-07-19T20:31:00.003+08:00

ENOUGHHHHHH! i had enough. ENOUGH ENOUGH ENOUGH ENOUGH ENOUGH ENOUGH ENOUGH ENOUGH ENOUGH!!!!!! ):
SITUATION ONE : WHAT THE FREAKING HELL IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE NOWADAYS ? SUPPORTING RAFFLES . BIASITY RIGHT?

SITUATION TWO : WHAT THE FREAKING HELL IS WRONG WITH CHILDREN NOWADAYS ? RUDERUDERUDE. i saw 5 FREAKING EXAMPLES EVERYWHERE I GO TODAY. WT ?

SITUATION THREE : WHY THE FREAKING HELL DID YOU DO THAT ? WE MADE A PACT. LOSERS WILL DO THAT . no. SORE LOSERS WILL DO THAT. WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU DO THAT ? IT'S PATHETIC. PEOPLE WHO DOES THAT WANTS SYMPATHY. AND I KNOW YOU'RE NOT LIKE THIS. WHAT'S WRONG ?

happy for drama, they got into the finals. JIAYOUS .
sigh. next's week's farewell. ANY FUNDS ?

SOMEONE HELP TO COOL ME DOWN PLEASE ?

ROCK YOUR ASS .

2008-07-12T14:31:00.004+08:00

"we will we will rock you ,OW! "
and yes , we WILL rock you.

Had Red Cross yesterday. we had UI , contact session, some ACCREDITATION I WANT TO TAKE! :D , and yes, FAREWELL! ): really like the seniors better this year. O: hehheh. i dont want them to leaveeee! ): sigh. had footdrill. like a dung manns. shant talk about it. makes me feel so gay. RAHH! then had PT and RECREE! :D but it was quite.. simple ? we ran 4 rounds round the track. then cooled down. then sang some cheers and THE END ?! ): it's dismissal. had CAC report briefing for a while. the competition is SATURDAY 19 JULY!! please keep me in your prayers cann? :D went for dinner and HOME. ): felt DAMN TIRED.

MOODSWAYS :((:

2008-07-08T22:38:00.003+08:00

WHOOOOS. just finished Elearning :D THE EIGHTETH DAY IN JULY. OMG . funfair was quite okayy . (: i love my games stall. :D Food Stall was okay laa ): just had a bit arguments here and there . (: but it's settled.. i guess ? ERMM. let's see. WAS VERY UBER UBER UBER UBER UBER TIRED! ): leg pain ): but went to marilyn house and got high a little too high . :D we started laughing because of marilyn. (: ERM. we got mcs for dinner. played finger games.. wanted to play UNO . but she lost the cards.. somehow? then we played PSP for a while.. then SAYO ):
Sunday had fundraising in church :D Selled NasiLemak and CurryChicken. (:(: HOW COOL IS THAT ? we practically SOLD everything. then had one packet left for ME C: hehxzxhzxz. went to library with my sister. :D i was actually finding a book. it ended up her finding a book. HOW LAME IS THAT DUDE ?! :D i eventually got tired and went home .SLEPT THROUGH THE NIGHT LORHSXSXSXS. WOKE AT 6. O: so early HOW COOL IS THAT?! :D then monday was youth day. NOW.. tuesday to thursday.. IS ELEARNING. but have to go back to school on friday. HOW STUPID . (: need to wear uniform ! ): so mafan. O:

2008-07-01T19:35:00.003+08:00

CRY. i just realised it was a stupid thing for me to do. My Emotional health is just not good. HOW SAD. sigh. today had chapel.. it was okay. talking about some cyber issues. i dont know why but i seem to like this kinda talks. HEHHEH. sian. then had science.. I SHAN'T TALK ABOUT WHAT SOMEONE ASKED ME.. unless she wanna embarass herself.. which i totally dont mind at all. Science was FAST. when the bell rang.. we were like.. SO FAST?! =D OOOOOOH. and today was NCC day. COOL. During recess.. i sat with janice and jiamin.. :D TO AVOID PUKING OUT MY RECESS (: then i was chinese.. Quite moody after that.. Someone spoilt my mood for the day.. after chapel. [cannot ask marilyn yourself meh? ask me for what? i your dog ah? ]
SIAN. then yahh. after recess.. Cried a bit lo. tempted to __________ but realised it was stupid for me to do that.. :D then after school.. met marilyn outside locker.. with abram . emporio and trish. i was pissed. i admit. then went outside staffroom to meet miss sham for CAC ): [it's killing ME! D: ] but thanks to those seniors who helped.. i think we got a starting line already.. MUST REALLY REALLY do this report with all my HEART , SOUL and MIND :D
SIGH~.

TO JOEY :
i dont hate you , dislike you , despise you for anything. But i dont like people insulting my friends.. that's my charecter.. and a close friend like that. if you insist and say it's none of my business. SO BE IT . but would you like it if i backstab you.. TO.. THE WHOLE CLASS?! you won't right?

TO BANGBANG MARILYN :
like i've said..the thing lacking between you two is trust. Right from the beginning. It's hard to say what holds tomorrow. Only God knows. NOW? we should trust in Him that he WILL bring us through , once yesterday.. now today.. next forever :D Just put down the load.. it's hard. move on with life marilyn. Get used to it. it's hard.. but it's better for you. TRUST, marilyn

RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2008-06-27T23:31:00.004+08:00

OH manns. i dont know how to do a report. ) : like.. on 11th june.. what's a report? formal writing.. how in the world would i know what's formal writing? blahhblahhblahh. i roughly know what's CAC like already.. as in the report. at least now we're doing SOMETHING. i guess i can only go out after the comp is done. im sorry chienie D: ermm. okayy.. school started on monday.. and im like.. DAMN tired on the first day.. cose we had 2hours of straight mother tongue.. and i hate MT. ermm.. tuesday had 2hrs straight of D&T.. (normal ) wednesday was OKAY.. thursday had two hours straight of english.. BLAHH. ><><>

i don't know what's ahead of me.. obstacles that block my way . But i know he could save me from those obstacles and i have faith in him that he will. iLOVEyouLORD :D

TO BANGBANG MARILYN :
though these things happen , i know she deserves to be blamed.. but sometimes it's not only one person's fault. i know she started the whole thing. Maybe it's just fate that things turned out like that. this might be an obstacle.. a high one for you to acheive. i admit.. i was angry.. but so what if you're angry.. can you solve anything? it just makes you work more muscles.. and that's not good. you're a nice friend.. just hope that.. when you leave.. bring those happy memories with you.. not the sad ones.. remember ME! :D when you're doing your doodles in your handbook there. (do they have ?)

REMEMBER ME FOREVER YOU STM GIRL .

OH AND TRICIA'S TOO MUCH yesterday.. blehh.. as if she got potential. ask her .. is her potential acting pretty? if so then please join a beauty school . :D

mixed feelings;*

2008-06-17T12:31:00.003+08:00

hello world. : boredboredboredboredbored.
tomorrow :
- dragon boating
- funfair prep
thursday :
-funfair prep.
friday :
- piano.
- funfair prep
- unit outing.

BORING WEEKDAYS MANNS.
1st june - JANICE AND JANIS 'S BIRTHDAY.
2nd june - rotting
3rd june - church camp/ HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARILYN! :D
4th june - church camp
5th june - church camp
6th june - church camp
7th june - church camp
8th june - church camp
9th june - red cross camp
10th june - red cross camp
11th june - red cross camp
12th june - rotting.
13th june - HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMALINA! :D
14th june - MALAYSIA SHOPPING! :D
15th june - CHURCH.
16th june - RESEARCH FOR CAC
17th june - ROTROTROT

finished all the homework that i wanna do. hehheh.

LIFER! :D

2008-05-31T15:18:00.003+08:00

YO! :D HAVEN't post quite long yeahh! :D got my phone back not long ago! :DD SO HAPPEHHH. ! :)) can't wait for church camp manns. SO EXCITING! :D haish.. holidays are here and im so not making use of it. OH BTW.. hmm.. monday blues.. stayed at home. SIGH. tuesday.. had red cross training. :D then went out with my girlfriend. :D WATCHED MOVIE :D what happens in vegas.. FUNNY LEHH. i kept wanting to go toilet.. LOL. oh and chien.. i dint bought BIG COKE.. i bought MEDIUM LEMON TEA :D sigh.. i went POK-KAI after buying tickets laa.. thanks to chien.. get to eat and play.. SIGH.. that's what laopos are for.. :DD wednesday.. went to marilyn's place there to do homework.. then we had some FUN! :D we kinda molested each other. =X hehheh. ate lunch . playplayplay.. ate mcs for dinner! :D thursday is the day when i got half of my life back again! collected my phone in the afternoon :D HOT DAY! sighh. FRIDAY.. stayed at home... played maple laa. :D for leisure.. not fun ! :D OHOH. and some PASAR MALAM opened downstairs my house.. COOL!! hehheh.
OHHHH! when i saw this gatsby advert.. i went laughing to my sis and said it was SOOOO GHEY . EW. started stripping off half his clothes and spray that deodarant.. LOL.. GAYYY! and my sister changed her URL.. so she thought i wouldn't know.. then i saw this URL.. then i asked her.. issit yours? (clicked on the url) then i found out it was her.. then ROFL! :D

WEIRDO

2008-05-15T19:02:00.002+08:00

if you dont like her then you talk about her for whad? dumb ass. It's like.. if I don't like you.. the more i talk about you makes me mad whad.. you think you very cool is it? Tricia doesn't have the time to deal with notevenworthadung like you laa. for goodness sake.. wake up. Still being in your childish world.. thinking that everything comes and goes whenever you want. People have pride.. so do you.. do you even cherish those things ? i dont think so. you go around spreading other people's rumours.. put yourself in their shoes.. how would you feel? you think as if like Tricia is not a human.. PLEASE LAA.. she not human you not even worth a dung laa. You think being hate by people is cool.. OMG. wake up from your fairytale laa. You even backstabbed me .. what else can't you do? COOL-wannabe? You think she changed.. FINE.. everybody changed.. you think you dint? i've changed also wadd. i admit.. i'm fat wadd. i admit.. you? please laa. fat then fat laa. at least im a human.. you're not. OH AND.. you're not suppose to judge a person you dumbass. How the person's relationship with God doesn't matter to you , DUDE. because on judgement day.. God will judge you also.. so save the trouble. You've made me hate you even more. even if you say she drowned me about you.. at least she doesn't lie and make a full story out of that. PLEASE LAA. you don't like her doesn't mean others don't like her.. dont influence people's life laa. they got a choice. they don't need someone like you to preach to them false testimony about people.. OH AND.. she's a nice girl.. don't make yourself so dirty and make others dirty too.

2008-05-09T22:16:00.003+08:00

YO PEOPLE! :D im back from camp! :) sighh..2G ROCKS MANNS! :D (like duh) with mrs ho and instruction ALI and MEOW! :D hahas. sighh..kinda miss camp.. like.. miss the hard floors..nice food! =P and the wonderful instructors and of course my dear friends! :D 4 days 3 nights really pass so fast! like OMG . sigh. i feel that everybody changed a bit laa. ;D esperecially CLARENCE (awesome dude)! :D and quite a bit of ppl! :D OKAYS... FIRST DAY : had admin stuffs .. then abseiling and zipline.. WOOTS! :D abseiling was okayy laa. zipline i was too scared.. i backed out .. ><> < (wonder if anyone is stuck in jalan bahtera) LOL. SIGHHHHH.. I LOVE 2G manns!!

i tried damn hard trying to forget you.. start my life over again.. i can't help it.. everytime i look at you.. it's just that damn feeling that goes through me.. i want to stop it.. i can't stop it. i hate everything that concern me and you. i wanna let go.. forget everything. start afresh. I HATE YOU.

2008-04-20T21:31:00.003+08:00

I REALLY SINCERLY WISH YOU TWO WOULD BE TOGETHER AGAIN. PLEASE DON'T BLAME ME FOR BEING A BUSYBODY. WHAT'S THE USE OF BEING ANGRY AND NOT CARING ABOUT EACH OTHER? IT'S HARD.. BUT DID YOU EVEN TRY? SADLY TO SAY.. I DON'T EVEN THINK YOU ARE. THE REST IS REALLY UP TO YOU TWO. I WANNA BE THE BUSYBODY HERE AND "MATCHMAKE" YOU TWO UP. I REALLY MISS THE MOMENTS WHEN BOTH OF YOU WERE TOGETHER.. CAN I REPLACE THE WORD WERE TO ARE NOW? (YOU CANT BLAME ME FOR HAVING STRONG VOCAB / GRAMMAR. ) I REALLY MISS THOSE TIME.. ONLY YOU TWO AND HELP YOURSELVES TO GET BACK THOSE. IT'S HARD TO UNDERSTAND. BUT CAN YOU TWO THINK FOR EACH OTHER BEFORE YOU THINK OF YOURSELF. WHAT SITUATION IS IT NOW? WHY DO YOU STILL CARE ABOUT YOUR FACE. WHO CARES?? JUST BE YOURSELF.. NO ONE WOULD LAUGH AT YOU. IF THE PERSON WHO LAUGHS AT YOU.. IT'S YOURSELF BECAUSE YOU CAN'T EVEN GET BACK THE FRIENDSHIP WHICH HAS ALL THE HAPPY MOMENTS TOGETHER.
LOVE YOU PPL FOREVER YOU KNOW. <3

SIGHH.. LEMME SEE.MONDAY HADDD......SCHOOL? THE SAME NORMAL THINGY LAA. LIKE.. MATHS... SCIENCE.. RECESS..ENGLISH.. HISTORY.. CHINESE.. CC. ><>< WEDNESDAYY.. HAD PE. 2.4 SUCKS.. LIKE IT ALWAYS DOO. BUT I KINDA PASSED.. =D.. CREDITS TO.. DIANA.. JIAQI.. JANIS.. BRIDGET.. DAPHNE.. CHARMAINE :D
THANK YOU THANK YOU. :D THURSDAY.. HAD SEXUALITY TALKK. LOL. TALKED ABOUT ABORTION. BLAHH. THE PICTURES WERE SOOOOO DAMNNN SADD LAA. SOME GUYS THINK IT'S COOL. OH EW. MAYBE THEY JUST WANNA ACT COOL. LOL.. LIKE ACT MEANIE. SIGHH. FRIDAY HAD RED CROSS. THEN GOT SOME KARATE LESSON BY LEONARD SIR AND CHANEL MAAM. THANK YOU THANK YOU. THE LESSONS WERE FUN.. :D THEN HAD DRAMA PERFORMANCE.... GREAT JOBS DRAMA PEOPLE. LOVE YOUR PLAY MANNS. ABOUT SANG NILA UTAMA AND SINGAPORE.. NICE PLAY! :D *CLAPS*

SIGHHH.. GUESS WHAT.. I MAYBE GOING FOR KOREAN TRIP FOR EXCHANGE PROGRAMM.. IM SOOOOOOOOO LOOKING FORWARD .. > < HOPE NOTHING SPOILS THE PERF NICE TRIP! :D SIGHH.. IM SO TIRED. :D.. BLOG ANOTHER DAYY! :D

TIRED><

2008-04-06T19:32:00.002+08:00

LOL . had church todayy. :D hahas. i went to take footdrill accred like yesterday.. AND WE ALL PASS! :D the VIs were SO NICEEEE! : D LOLS. like everybody pass laa. sighh. :D I GOT BADGESS! ! ! ! :DDDDDD
let's see.
-OA BADGE (bronze)
-EVAC BADGE (bronze)
-FOOTDRILL BADGE (bronze)
-CIVIL DEFENCE BADGE ! :D
still got wadd arhhs. ><>

TO MARILYN! :D :
YO BABE > <>
hahas. (:

FINALLY

2008-03-29T21:56:00.002+08:00

FINALLY. A TIME TO POST! :D ehhs. siann nor.. staying at home is such a BORE! I think my class RAWKS. :D ANYWAYS. RED CROSS RAWKS. BUT.. point is that.. i forgot where my enthu-ness came from. FD COMP? or weekly meetings? YOs? VIs? NCOs? or PLATOON MATES? i DONT KNOW. ><>
MONDAY - I WAS F-ED UP. dont know why also. maybe because after assembly we have to climb up 4th levels. but that doesn't seem to be a prob for mee. SIGH. dont know whyy also. maybe im starting to hate ppl surrounding me.
TUESDAY - home visit. THE people there are sorta nice. :D haish. except for some laa. can understand . it's okyy. maybe we can try to speak up more. :DD not too badd laa. not as bad as i thought it would be. after home visit. went to void deck and met joey and chien.. meddling with some kitten. then after some .. sorta warnings. we sorta put back the cat and when off. >< (we saw the cat EMO) :D
WEDNESDAY - had some idiotic lit lesson. got *chased out* because *never bring book* .. LOL. we WANT to go out luhh. you think we so guai mehh? stay in class listen to your naggings. =x dint do maths homework lorhh. then rushed the homework during lit. :DD (i pro right?!?! :D )
THURSDAY - Lesson seemed boring as ever. Stayed back for something. forgotten =X HAD ATTIRE CHECK. sianns. so good. they missed first four lessons? NICE ONE DUDE! :D mother tongue and science. sigh. had Lit. lesson was okayy. cose of 'CANT SEE ME' . LOLS.
FRIDAY - Had english as first period. not too badd. we had spelling. LOL. almost the whole class cheat. :D (guess whether i did? :D ) hahas . im serious laa. then had IT. as normal. we had to finish the recycle thingg. then i did the underwater thingy. so i was like.. is there crabs underwater? :DD had red cross laa. we had footdrill the whole session. but formation not up yet. we understand but no rehearsal we cannot. :D

HAISH. WHAT CANT MY PARENTS UNDERSTAND? i don't want to enrol in piano. i have no interest in piano. it sucks. i kept trying. still can't . what you want me to do? try again and again liao. SO? I STILL CANNOT WADD. WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO? i cant COPE LAA. i suck at academic already. can't be in express. you happy laa. both my sisters can i can't cose iim born stupid . hOW? what you want me to dooooooo?

2008-03-19T19:28:00.003+08:00

When it's 2H PE today.. i was sitting at the ledge. they were playing badminton.. one thinq came true my mind.. i feel that.. the badminton rackets hitting the shuttercock are like ppl who throws their troubles to you.. have you ever wonder.. like.. how people would want you to pour your troubles to them.. have you ever thought whether people would want to listen to you? Real strange.. somehow.. i feel like im the shuttercock.. my friends are the badminton racket.. when they want the shuttercock.. they take it with them.. when they dont want it anymore.. they hit it away.. LOGICAL RIGHT?
Im sad . Serious. but no want will ever know how i really feel.. im being place in a position which i don't want to be. It's not my fault. serious. I get scolded in school.. scolded at home.. scolded at tuition centre.. scolded at piano lessons.. i get scolded everywhere. im tired already.. does anyone out there know how i feel?

Had mass accred and courses b4 march hols.. during march hols and after march hols.

OA : i passed OA. like wow.
EVAC : i also pass EVAC.. like wow.
CIVIL DEFENCE COURSE : i pass.. cose they give answers. -.-
FOOTDRILL : haven't go yet.

pathetic manns. i had civil defence course on the march hols in a friday.. like we were late laa. and we never kena. so i guess we're lucky? i had EVAC also.. i passed.. -.- like three people pass.. YuanHao sirr is soooo nice manns! LOL. if i pass footdrill bronze.. i think i can have all the bronze badges. :D i got fund-raising.. and.. one more i forgot laa. sigh.

SPLITTING ME! :D

2008-03-08T11:10:00.003+08:00

AHH DOYYS. you know whatt?? you don't know what?? i know what. LOL. IM GOING FOR EVAC BRONZE.. FOOTDRILL BRONZE .. and maybe civil defence. LOLS. then after that if i pass evac and footdrill.. i'll get the badges.. OA BADGE! :D civil defence badge. OMG! :D it's sooooooooooo FUN! :D sigh.. MARCH HOLIDAYS PLATOON TWO WANNA GO OUTT??? :D on wednesday manns. venue haven't decide yet larhhs. if wanna go just sms ME:D hahahas . -.-
haish.. THE HOLIDAYS ARE HERREE! damn happy. can sleep likefor as long as i want.. for ONE WEEK. LOL. (ONLY?! ) zz. OMG. you know.. yesterday's dismissal.. i dint know what i was doing.. after the first keluar baris.. the sir said samular... ok fine.. we went back.. after that was like.. i dint paid attention.. he said.. RC sediahh. i was like.. CHECK! OMG.SOOOO MALUU! :S

i'll let go from now on.. never to bother you again.. from this moment ill walk out of your life. i don't want to be a puppet anymore.. i want to be myself. i guess this is the best thinqq i can do . i don't want to hold you back.. i guess letting go is the best. Getting stripped off doesn't matter to me anymore.. i guess being myself is the best responsibility i can do for myself. i don't want to be like that person.. ending up just because that person has a difficulty which doesn't make sense at all. settling down with what i have.. doing the best of what i can is what matters to me. even though it's just a small thinq, i guess i can make the whole group change their point of view about me. i dont wish to make use of my authority to do things thAT i really don't want to do.. but have no choice..
" it's not a matter of time but a matter of priorities "

I wanna be a normal girl. doing what everyone is doinq.. not like some nerddio or spastic person who is his robot.. i hate that life.. i wishh i could turn back time.. and never knew him at all.

Best MEDICINE! :D = LAUGHTER! TRUE?

2008-02-27T21:16:00.004+08:00

LOLS. Life is so.. kinda.. weird. ): okayys. how do i describe it.. At first.. you'll be like.. completely.. blurred? The next second.. you'll be like scolded for something.. Something i don't understand is.. WHY? she's like.. damn irritating.. i know i shouldn't be saying all this.. i dont really care about whether you really hate me or not. WHY SHOULD I bother about such childish things? PLEASE grow up larhhs. the thing is that.. stop boasting to me cann? Like.. SO WHAT? i dont give a damnn freakking hell . FYI. You leader big arh.. dont join then dont join lorh. at least im free on that day ! :D
Whoever she wanna choose.. it's her decision wadd. WHY drag me in?? At least i can save an explanation givenn! (: I TELL YOU.. I DONT REALLY GIVE A DAMN ON WHAT YOU HAVE AND WHAT YOU ARE DOINGG. please luhh.. i think janice is like.. thousand billion times better than you. AT LEAST SHE DOESN'T BOAST. tsk,, i dont mind being stripped off now.. i got a grey book. SO? you got higher than me in chinese .. SO? you got better marks.. SO? i tell you RIGHT NOW.. RIGHT HERE. i dont give a damn freakking care about this. at least i dont go around telling ppl.. How much you got arh? and then say " AIYOHH.. i got so low lehh" .. HAR-NAH. Before the test results.. " SURE FAIL ONE LORH" READ MY FACE.. i dont give a damn.

- you got boyfriend.. SO ?.. like i care like that.. You got crushes? i bet you like them and they dont like you. EXCUSE MEE! that's infatuation.. FYI. READ MY PRETTY FACE. I DONT GIVE A DAMN. NOW.. my main purpose is to concentrate about studies.. who cares about boyfriends? Just some pillar you can rely on just for a moment.. I just dont understand.. why people put in so much in relationships and cant do the same for studies? totally doesn't make sense. Now im gonna like.. concentrate on.. CCA! :D and STUDIES! :D sigh.. i can really be a irritating brat if you force me to it.. trust me.. i'll give you first class service.

SIGH. STUDIESSTUDIESSTUDIES. you tell me you dont like her.. then why still accept her things? that shows that you dont completely hate her. AM I RIGHT? ii tell you arhh.. u're the sore loser among the losers. tskk, im serious.. yoou cannot say anything else.. either.. u HAHAHA.. showing me ur dang irritating teeth.. OR.. shuddap. RIGHT? SORE LOSER LEHS! i knoww you use this kind of method on guys.. please larhh.. i'll get goosebumps. You go and flirt with your guys.. PLEASE... ew~

i guess i wouldn't like LTC.. ): seems so tough.. LOLS. scared.. ><>

-- ANYWAY.. everything in this blog arhhs. is meant for my friends. LOLS. so if u read.. and thinking twice on being my friend.. go ahead. :D remember.. I DONT GIVE A DAMN! :D

2008-02-17T16:39:00.003+08:00

SIGHH.. we sweat together..cried together.. ran together.. slept together.. (><) .. ate together .. persevere on just for the event on 16th feb. Even though we didn't get champion.. i guess we've all learned that doing our best is the best that we can do.. champion is just a bonus. I guess we've all done our best already. Especially Siti manns.. Ponner to commer.. :D But anyway.. Let the pictures talk (:

Our Starting :D
Rocket Formation!
Rocket Formation TOO! :D
Our 'X' ! :D
WINDMILL! :D

SIGH.. all the past four months of effort has been paid off. We really enjoyed ourselves. iF not for our seniors who have came back for us.. i guess we wouldn't made it for the competition. :D

SIGHH.. like what jiaqi say.. WIN TOGETHER..LOSE TOGETHER.. TEAMMATES . :D

after our competition.. we went to habourfront to makan lorhs. Took a few pictures.. that jiaqi arhh..after i showed her the picture.. she was like.. HAHAHAHAHHA.. sighh.. ><>

Subsitution

2008-02-04T20:48:00.000+08:00

i realise im just a subsitution for everything.. i don't know what i'm doing..
one day it finally came to my mind.. what on earth did i just do for you?..

it made me woke up.. realising how foolished i've been. why did i do all these just for you? you've got all your friends. why do i even think about you treasuring me as a friend? I realise many many things.. until one day i really broke down and BROKE down and cried. I had to admit that i also felt a distance i have for you between the past and now.. i just feel.. no sense of.. you know.. friendship being with you.. like im just a schoolmate you see everyday.. hello byebye and stuffs. like.. NOTHING else?..

Sighh.. had training today as usual.. slacker.. HAIZ.

'i really feel like breaking down..

90th post

2008-02-03T18:50:00.000+08:00

THE MESS WE MADE .. xPP

JIAQI ! :D (my lovable chipmunk) ;D
ZILIAN-ING IN THE TOILET xDD

LOLS . :D

hawhaw. took a picture of joey when she was GOING to cough :DCHIENIE THINKING ABOUT SOMETHING. x_X
CHIENIE ZI LIAN-ING XD
CHIENIE EMO-ING :D
MY HART

SIGH. finally it's all over. xPP MANY MANYMANY things happened larhh.. got FD COMP CAMP.
GOT "outings" LOL. anyways. FD COMP camp wasn't as bad as i thought it would be.. :D the first night i was like.. *panda eyes* damn tired larhhs. we slept at one plus. cose we bathed at... 11 plus to 12 plus larhhs. then we camwhore a bit .. i think i was the first to sleep. ><>
then second day.. DAWN CAME ! :D damn happy larhhs . then we had PT.. PT wasn't as bad as i thought too. :D we ran.. then played some game.. i was DAMN blur... when guan yu caught me i was lyk.. huh? i was the last one cose i forgotten who stood in front of leonard sir.. then i was day dreaming (as usual) then she caught me.. then we played caterpillar.. LOL. beatrice and james were the last ones to get caught.. james actually can run larhh/.. but he falled. tsk. :D
had breakfast .. training blahh.. we were sooooo slackish. ): haiz..
THEN.. WE HAD DEBRIEF AND ALL. :D we had one last tea break and we're suppose to feed the person on our left.. so yahh.. beatrice was on my left.. dawn on my right. you know the sequence larhh:D then.. james fed siti.. THE DRINK went into her nose manns! HAHA.. whoever is james's gf will... you know lar:D
blahh.. had a postcard.. then got comments. :D sighh.. i hope we can win the CHAMPION! :D
like wad jiaqi say.. :D i hope chanel maam can say.. FAIRFIELD METHODIST SECONDARY SCHOOL CHAMPION! :D

HELLO

2008-01-31T18:11:00.000+08:00

GEE. haven't been really posting . LOL. anyways. I had like..trainings. tuition. training. tuition..training.. piano. SIGH. i dont really mind trainings. I just feel that tuition and piano are like a waste of my time lorhs. like.. i dont really learned anything from what the teachers teach. IN FACT.. the tuition teacher i WAY behind my teacher. like.. okayy.

you aren't the same person i thought you would be..
everything changed about you just because of a guy..
after i say a few words.. you'll get angry.
just what is the problem?
yes.. so what if i liked him before? must i continue that love?
and i tell you.. people tolerate is because they have high level of tolerance..
you dont think everybody can tolerate you.
I know you got a new nice possesion.. SO WHAT?
should i be like.. OH WOW. im so jealous.. BLAH.
i tell you.. if u want my respect.. SHOW ME you deserve it.
oh and.. you dont have to act in front of a guy.. like i can SO tell it larh.

MANYMANYMANY things happened lar..

ME : today you taking attendance right?
SHE : Yah.. im not too sure.
ME : oh .. if u taking attendance.. you have to take the MC or parents letter of excuse .
SHE : I thought you were suppose to take?
ME: NO.. ________ say it was the whole comittee.
SHE : (bu shuang me) I don't know lar.
-end of convo-

what's wrong with taking MC or an letter of excuse.. they aren't going to eat you up anyway. SIGH. FD COMP!! T^T.

WE GOT THE WHOLEEEEEEEEEEEEEE FORMATION.. (did i said that?) oh nevermind. LOL. sighh. SHARP-NESS MANNS! dont pon camp lehh! very nice to pon meh? just because of one earthly possesion.. means you have to give up everything for it? that's so foolish. TT^TT.

'do you know you have hurt me? i dont think so.
sometimes i really want to give up on you..
something stop me.. i don't know why too.

TO MY LOVELY XIAO MEI MARMAR!:
at this point of time.. sure got loads of stress derhh.. try to gambattei.. instead of hating everything.. what your mom gave you was just a lecture.. what HE gave you was just a game for him.. it's tough to forget everything.. take one step at a time and remember i'll always be there for you and even with jiamin and all. i don't care. even the whole world despises you.. i'll be there. trust me.

WHY?

2008-01-26T21:09:00.000+08:00

i don't have the answer to the question of your love. i felt so stupid. it's ridiculous. i feel like just breaking down . i don't want to carry on that kind of journey already. it's too tough. tougher than the ones i've carried on. i want to forget about you. deep inside my mind.. something stopped me from forgetting you. i don't know WHY.. no one can tell me.. i've tried my best to distance myself from you. WHY can't you just get that hint? looking at you from afar.. reminds me of the moment you cast me aside and just leaving me alone. seeing your back view makes me wanna hug you.

Today got FD COMP TRAINING! :D
dingding was like.. LATE.. LIKE LOL.. he said he can't find his pants. what a lousy excuse. tsktsk. hawhaw. then we had a BIT of PT this morning. HOHOHO. which means he have to run aLonE! :D WAHAHAH. oh by the way.. WE GOT THE WHOLEEEEEEEEEEEEEE FORMATION!! :D SO HAPPY! :D but the sharpness and everything not there. TT^TT. must GAMBATTEI-YO! :D sigh. I can't seem to focus on something i need. HOW!!! ?
I NEED TO STUDY MANNS! ! :D

STUDYSTUDYSTUDY!

'cose i love you and i wanna be with you;

OH MANNS.

2008-01-22T21:12:00.000+08:00

LOL. BASED ON MINE OPINION. i think im gonna be sacked soon. LOL >______<
oh-kay.. i did such a horrible job in marking attendance. like OMG. then like.. i cant even control myself.. what rights do i have to control my CLASS? LOL. sighh. OH BTW. got FD comp training manns.
TO JIAQI : im pretty sure that dream of yours would REALLY come true!
TO JIAMIN : maybe being overly superstitious might not be good. :D

SIGH.. PLEASE COME FOR TRAINING MANNS.! LOLS. sighh.sad. I love the fancy drill manns! :D i'm lovin it! :D

i got a little mixed up between like.. "intervals" and then.. like my mind totally went blank. like TOTALLY BLANK. LOL. anyways. i gort science centre trip today.. I WAS UBERRRR FUN! :D we went with sec2 H. like.. OKAY. still can see a fewwwww 1H ppl. :D SO FUNNY LORHS.

justin's phone/psp got some noise lar.. then he keep after the teacher stands.
Teacher : JUSTIN.. take your bag and sit at the corner.
Justin : WHAT? i never do anything.
LIKE LOL.
-.-

FD COMP IS JUST LIKE LESS THAN A MONTH AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.
TT^TT. DO YOUR BEST MATES! :D (espacially that chipmunk jiaqi) LOL . dont hit me horh! :D

EMO. ):

i saw your back of your body.. everything stopped.

i reflected;

2008-01-13T22:46:00.000+08:00

i sincerly reflected on the photots we had last time cose my class needs the photo and all. and i found something. a picture done in about 2003 or 2004. i cried after i saw that photo. i dunno why. tears just came out of my eyes. dripping down .. slowly.. to the ground. i was thinking. what have she done to deserve ALL this? nothing. i was overcome with melancholy. i din't know what to say den.. i just kept crying. until i saw this weapon. i din't came to the point to do the stuffs. i guess i wasn't really prepared to face the consequences. so i stop. i guess im just being EMO? i dunno . i saw the two photos. i was prepared to face the consequences. but then.. something stopped me. i dunno how. but somehow it stop. I'm sorry for what i've done in the past. to hurt u and all. i don't know what to say.

Just want to say a five letter word. sorry.

i didn't know the pain was so strong. until i really saw those stuffs. i broke down and cried. this sentence kept caming up to my mind.. what has she done to deserve this?

just one last sentence to end it off..

sorry mom.